Glee- Season 7-Episode 6- "Heal The World"

Chapter 2: Confessions Revealed

Scott's Apartment:

"So do you want to tell us what's really bothering you, or you do you just want to continue moping around?" Spencer said, confronting Scott. "You really want to know what's bothering me?" Scott asked. "Yeah, cause it's obvious to all of us, that you're not yourself or at least you haven't been for the past 17 hours." Spencer replied. "Alright. I don't know where to begin, so I'll just start with what's on my mind and off the top of my head." Scott started to explain. "I'm  tired of people seeing me the way they want to see me. The New Directions Alumni thinks I'm sort of star. I feel like I'm under a lot of pressure to live up to that reputation. They think I've got multi-talent or that I'm destined to lead this group to victory; I've got a news flash for you: Do I look like the guy who's going to lead a group to victory?! I don't do stuff like this. Truthfully, outside of the Glee club, I'm nothing to anyone or anybody. I'm a loner, a rebel without a cause." "What are you talking about?" Spencer asked. Scott took a huge sigh, then began to explain his story to everyone:

"I spent four years out on the streets. I was homeless. I had no job, no money, no future, and worse, I was just living to survive to a fate I didn't even care about. It wasn't until I decided to move on with my life and put some of the past behind me that things started to get better. The problem is, the more I tried to move on and move forward with my life, I found myself taking two major steps back every time. The truth is, I don't like opening up to other people. When I was younger, I got bullied, I was ridiculed, and I never once gained acceptance from anybody or anyone. I always felt rejected, and lost. I felt like the odd man out. I still do. "Why?" Marley asked. "I saw how all the rest of you guys interacted with the Glee club alumni. You guys were tight. I hardly know any of them. They hardly even noticed me or even acknowledged my existence." Scott said. "What are you afraid of? Getting rejected by them?" Marley asked. "Worse; I feel they're never going to accept me for who I really am." Scott replied sadly. "Who do you think you are?" Kitty asked her brother, expecting an honest answer. "A troubled individual who's had a hard life, who never caught a break, who's just struggling to find his own identity, his own purpose, and just trying to get by despite his disability. I see myself as someone who's introverted, quiet, and alone. I don't want to be alone. I just want purpose. I want feeling. I want my life to mean something. I feel like.. (tears form in Scott's eyes.) I feel like I've failed in life." (Scott begins to cry).

"You are not a failure Scott." Kitty said sternly, but politely. "Do you hear me? You are a special individual." "How?" Scott asked looking at her with tears in his eyes. "Look at you, where you were years ago, compared to now; You're back in high school with a purpose: getting your diploma, graduating, and getting your dream job. You're in a club that respects you, admires you, seeks your advice, and more importantly goes out of their way to make you feel welcome. So don't you dare think that you're a failure. You hear me? You have plenty of friends, and more importantly, you have a family." Kitty explained. "You're not alone Scott." Marley added. "You're caring, you're unique, you're creative, and you are special. Don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise." "I appreciate you guys saying this, but how do I tell this to the rest of the Glee club? How do I open up to other people?" Scott asked. "You've got to gain their trust, and then you'll learn to trust them." Spencer said. "How?" Scott asked. "You could start by talking to them at practice tomorrow." Marley suggested. "What if I don't know the words to say?" Scott asked. "Just start with singing, then the rest will work itself out. The Glee club will see you for who you really are: A caring, special, kindhearted individual with a tremendous heart of gold." Kitty said smiling. Scott gave her a warm smile as his spirits started to brighten. He then walked over and embraced his sister. "Thanks Kitty, I needed to hear that." "Just be yourself. That's all anyone can ask of you." She replied.

"Now Marley, what are you so nervous about?" Kitty asked, confronting her girlfriend. Marley started to sniffle. "Two years ago, do you remember what happened?" Kitty began to sniffle as well. "You collapsed on stage. That was one of the scariest things I've ever seen." "I cost us Sectionals. We got disqualified." Marley said crying. "No Marley, you keep blaming yourself for what happened. You weren't responsible; I was." Kitty said crying. "What are you talking about?" Scott asked. "I had manipulated her into developing an eating disorder. She got bulimic. She ended up vomiting right before our performance, and then in the middle of it, she just collapsed on the stage like an elephant; I never should have done that. I'm SO sorry Marley!" Kitty began to break down. Marley immediately embraced her girlfriend and they held each other tight. "Sssshh, it's OK, I forgive you." She said. "She's right. It's not about what happened then Kitty, it's about right now; So it's not stage fright that's bothering you Marley?" Scott asked. Marley's tears started to subside. "No, I just don't want that to happen again." Marley said. "It won't. I promise. I won't let that happen again." Kitty said. Marley nodded, and then the two embraced. "Are you going to be OK for Sectionals Marley?" Scott asked. "Yeah." Marley said softly. "What about you?" "I'll feel better once I open up to everybody. The problem is, I don't have a song prepared to sing for them." Scott said. "Just sing from the heart man. You're someone who always puts his heart and soul into what he sings. Sing how you feel, and more importantly put some passion into it. That's what you do best when you sing, and that's what people admire most about you: your commitment to your singing." Spencer said trying to encourage him. "I'll try." "Just be yourself." Marley said. "Be who you are." Kitty said. Scott nodded and acknowledged them all. He then sighed and began to sing:

I've been sitting here trying to find myself
I get behind myself I need to rewind myself
Looking for the payback listen for the playback
They say that every man bleeds just like me

And I feel like number one yet I'm last in line
I watch my youngest son and it helps to pass the time
I take too many pills it helps to ease the pain
I made a couple of dollar bills but still I feel the same

Everybody knows my name they say it way out loud
A lot of folks fuss with me it's hard to hang out in a crowd
I guess that's the price you pay to be some big shot like I am

Out stretched hands and one night stands
Still I can't find love

And when the walls are tumbling down I will always be around

People don't know about the things I say and do
They don't understand about the stuff that I've been through
It's been so long since I've been home

I've been gone, I've been gone for way too long
Maybe I've forgot all the things I missed
Oh, somehow I know there's more to life than this

I've said it too many times and I still stand firm
You get what you put in and people get what they deserve

Still I ain't seen mine, no I ain't seen mine
I've been given but just ain't been getting'
I've been walking that thin line

So I think I'll keep on walking with my head held high
I'll keep moving on and only God knows why

Only God, only God, only God knows why
Only God knows why, why, why
Only God knows why

Take it to the river, hey
Won't you take me to the river, hey

Kitty walked over and embraced her brother. "That was beautiful." "Thanks." Scott replied. "You sang from your heart Scott. You opened your mind and expressed that to us as well." Marley added. "Now you just got to do that tomorrow." Spencer said.

Scott nodded, then adjourned their meeting for the night. "Alright. I'll see you guys tomorrow at Glee Club practice."

It seems that Marley and Scott have opened up to Kitty & Spencer. Now all Scott has to do is open up to the rest of the Glee Club tomorrow at practice.

Will he do it, and what song will he sing?

Find out in the next chapter.

By the way, the song Scott sings in this chapter is "Only God Knows Why" by Kid Rock.