i dont wanna be selfish
but honestly,
it hurts me so bad
i cant say 'everything is fine'
i trust you so much
but it really makes me sad know that you
with her will go out together
though you have said it before
though i know her very well
though i know that she is just friend to you
it still hurts me
i dont know how many times i am tearing apart
i just feel alone
i cant tell you
im afraid that you will think i am selfish
that i dont understand your condition
your situation
i miss you so much all the time
i wanna go talk with you
but our situation makes us far away
it really makes me sad
that
i cannot run into you in front of everyone
i cannot talk with you in front of your friends
bcs u said, "dont tell anyone."
i just can see you from my own place
watching you laugh
please, i just wanna be with you
im sorry for being selfish
and wanting your attention all of the time
Q, Oct 2019
