A Vent Towards The Rainbows

Confidential

          "I hate it she doesn't love me anymore. But, my love? It's still unconditional. Even if she takes me for granted, I'll continue to be the same with her. Well, it ain't love then. Love gives freedom. And this love? This love gives me leashes. That's an obsession. I hate calling my feelings an obsession. But, wait, 'hate' is a strong word." I stopped ranting because I didn't even make sense anymore. Literally.
           "Why don't you just go and study and stop thinking? Rather, overthinking. Exams are round the corner. The world doesn't work the way you think it does." Ashlesha said, clearly annoyed.
           "You won't get it." I yelled at her unnecessarily and stormed out of the room. She won't ever get it. People don't think the way I do. They don't overthink stuff. My life, is just Wierd with a capital W. But a smart person once said, "The fault is not in us, it's in our stars."
        So, the next day was in my stars. Afsheen rushes to me as I entered the class next morning.
      "You hate me?" She sounded so indifferent, almost without emotions.
      "I love you more than the world." I was at a loss for words.
       "Ashlesha told me otherwise."
       "You believe in her more than you believe in me?"
       "Maybe?" That was meant to be a question but sounded more like a statement. That broke my heart in a gazillion pieces. She was so apart from me that she didn't even trust me anymore. So, within a day, the entire class got to know I talk behind Afsheen's back. I never knew people will give a thought about such a thing, if that really happens. Our friendship, that was so pure until last summer, and an one-sided attempt at keeping up to the label of "best friends" for the past three months, turned into a gossip pill.
          Those kidhood days, when 'Pokemon' was all we cared about and 'Chota Bheem' wasn't cliche for us, to the day last week when I asked her for "The Fault In Our Stars", our friendship was unscathed. Whatever was between us, was between us. All that seemed a dream then, when everyone was so concerned about how I was backbiting, which I wasn't doing. Infact, nobody in the class was talking to me. Bottled up in my sadness, when did I distance myself so much from them?
         "Why did you do that?" Afsheen caught up with me later that afternoon.
         "And why on earth do you think I did that?" I didn't want to yell, at this point, but I did.
        "You've changed."
        "Look who's speaking."
        "You know what, just go and die. You ain't fit for this world."
      Those were the last words she said to me. I didn't have it in me to go to school after that. Today, a week later, I think she was right. I am not fit for this world. My fault was confiding in the wrong person. And my destiny, will be those stars. Faulty as they are, they'll be all the more faulty with me amongst them.

(I know this is not the best story out there for, maybe, the plot is not quite clear. I'll be better next time. Don't forget to vote and shower your support till then. :))) )