My Warrior

Chapter 4

Bertholdt's POV

That's just great. Me and Reiner partnered with Y/N. Not complaining or anything but I'll now never hear the end of it from Reiner. I tossed and turn all night. I just can't simply sleep. Maybe if I go take a walk around the trainning grounds it'll ease my mind? Yeah I should just do that. I quietly got up from the bed without making any noise that'll wake the rest up. Just as I was walking I saw Y/N sitting on a barrel by the trainning grounds. She looks sad for some reason. I was debating if I should go ask what was wrong or if I should just go back. I was about to return to the boys dorm when she called out my name.
"Bert?"

Your POV

I couldn't sleep. I was actually going to be with Reiner and Bertholdt. I'm not complaining or anything but...why the hell am I nervous? When I went back to the dorms I told Sasha who I was paired up with and then gave me a smirk. I asked her what was up with that smirk and she simply stated that she was smirking for no reason.
"Oh really?"
"Of course! I'm definitely not smirking at the fact that you got paired up with Bertholdt."
I sighed. Do I really like Bertholdt? I mean sure he helps me a lot but he's like that with everyone, not just me. Besides...it's pretty obvious by the looks of it he likes Annie I mean he stares at her a lot.
I decided to go out carefully getting out of bed without making any noises that'll wake anyone up and decided to go to the trainning grounds. The higher ups really didn't care if we were out of course just as long as we didn't attempt to leave far from base. I sat on one of the barrels thinking about our assignment tommrow. It was actually gonna be the exact same mountain area that my dad use to take me and my brother when we were little and going there just triggers me in a way. I start to feel this anger build up inside me making me just wanna go find the Colossal Titan and stab him multiple times and more importantly find out who is the person responsible for the deaths of thousands of innocent people. Apparently there are people who can transform into titans. There's Eren for one. All these thoughts and questions came racing to my mind until I actually felt someone standing behind me. I turn around to see Bertholdt heading back to his dorm.
"Bert?"
He turns around.
"H-hi Y/N, you couldn't sleep either?"
"No." I simply said quietly.
"Is something wrong?"
I shook my head.
"Y/N, you can tell me"
"I-it's just..."
"Does it have to do with tommorow's assignment?"
I shook my head yes.
"That mountain area we got assigned..well...my dad use to take me and my brother to hike there when we were little. Now I'll never get that chance to do that again thanks...t-to...that monster...that kicked the wall in."
I was breathing heavily at this point and Bertholdt panicking tried to carry me somewhere but I made signs that I don't want to go anywhere.
I finally started to calm down and when I did I apologize to Bertholdt.
"It's alright. Are you sure you're okay Y/N? You don't want to see a nurse?"
"No I'm fine."
"I think you should not go with us tommorw. You should talk to Instructor Shadis about this."
"No. No way in hell. I will go."

Bertholdt's POV

I've called myself one a bunch of times and I'll say it again. What a monster. Now I'm even more worried about Y/N coming with us tommorw. What I did now actually triggers her in a way that affects her health. I will be the death of her. I've also said this before and I'll say it once more. I want to tear myself apart for the monster I am.