dear jonghyun

october 12th, 2019

i think about you so much.

sure. i wasn't a shinee fan when you passed away, but when i found out it snapped my heart.

i found you in June 2019. i read your story, saw your final letter, and watched your funeral.

as my tears fell, i fell for you.

each day, i begin to love you more.

you. you were very special.

you were kind hearted and always putting others before yourself.

you thought you didn't reach others expectations.

this was mentally draining you.

draining you until there was nothing left.

you were shattered.

december 18th, 2017

i wasn't a kpop fan back then.

i can't even imagine how terrible your fans felt when they heard the news.

about a week before you decided to take your own life, you performed a concert.

looking through your eyes, I can see that you were tired.

very tired.

they say that eyes are the window to the soul.

your soul was broken.