The night I fell in love

Why

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The wind blowing crazy.
The radio static rings through my head as the thought of him goes through my mind.

I take a sip of the red wine bottle that was just newly opened.

Broken glass on the floor from the perfect dinner I had made.
The holes in the walls from the times he took his anger out on but missed.

My legs dangle from the kitchen counter with weakness feather from my body.
The bruises on my body ached from the cold wind from the windows comes in.

My lip stings every time I take a sip. The dash on my bottom right of my red tinted lip burns from the air hitting it.

The mascara dry on my cheek from the tears that slipped.

The apparent was quite. The sounds from two hours ago can still be heard lingering in the corners of the room.

The light over the dinner table swings from the chain that holds it.

My eyes are bloodshot from the pain he gave me. But I still let him come back.

Why do I let him come back?

I love him

Loved.....

past tense.

I don't feel the same as I used to.
I used to feel loved every time I looked in this place I once called home.

I want to leave,.....

But my feet aren't moving.

'Go!.... move!!'

I sat still as the tears reach for my chest to the place I had my necklace I got on our first anniversary.

I remember when he ripped it from my neck and threw it.

It dangles from the fake plant that I got from Home goods. The emblem broke from the pull of his strong hand that where around my neck for to long.

I woke up on the kitchen floor scared of what happened or what is going to happen.

Why did he do this to us?..

To me?

I thought he loved me

I guess not.

I finish the last drop left in the bottle of wine and throw it on the ground.

I finally let all the tears fall and cup my face with my hands, and cry.

Just as I was about to let out a loud bawl someone knocks on the front door.

I put on a coat and zipper it up the whole way to my chin. I check in the reflection of the glass cabinets to see if I look a mess.

I look hideous.

I clean off my face with a wet wipe and try to unclog me noes by sniffing. I put on a fake smile and answer the door.

"Hello"