Misunderstood: The Life of a Brown Skin Girl

Wassup yall, my name is Blazè Gray Johnson. I live in the Jefferson Hill Projects with my bougie ass mama. I swear I can't stand her. Thinking she better than somebody just cause her parents have money. Bitch please. It aint even yours anymore.

But anyway like my mama, I'm brown skinned, I have shoulder length black hair, when it's straightened, and I'm 5'3. People always say that we look like twins, but other than our looks, we are nothing alike. She's greedy, I'm thankful. She's stupid, I'm smart. She's a undercover hoe, I'm a virgin. She's bougie, I know what I'm about.

But anyway let me get up and get ready for school. 

I got up and went to take me a shower and handle my business. I went to my closet to find something to wear to school. I picked out my acid wash skinny jeans, my Run-DMC shirt and my red converse, pairing it with my gold hoop earrings. I then added some eye liner to my eyes and lip gloss to my lips. I grabbed my phone and my backpack and went downstairs. Now, any other child would be smelling some good ass breakfast, but not me. My mama said and I quote " I'm not slaving for no damn body, ain't nothing wrong with your hands". I know right? What kind of shit is that? So I just got an apple and some water and kept it moving. I got in my car and drove to the hell hole I call Jefferson Hill High School.

At Jefferson Hill High School you have your typical thugs, hoes, bitches and nerds. Where do I stand in all that? I really don't know and don't care. I walked in, and already people were talking shit like I couldn't hear them.

'This black bitch think she cute.'

'Damn she bad.''

'She cute as hell.'

'She ugly as hell.'

I just went striaght to my locker and got my books, when my best friend Awnice came. She loud as hell, but that still my bitch. Me and Nica been rocking together since Pre-K. These group of girls were talking about me and Nica stood up for me. Ever since then that's been my ROD. Awnice stood at 5'5, light skin with sandy red hair, nice brown eyes, and she's thick in all the right places.

We walked to first period, where our teacher Ms. Jackson was already buggin getting on everyones nerves talking bout what she expects of us this year, and yada yada. Who gives a damn? She's says the same shit every single year.

I walked in the class, and everyone looked at me and Awnice. I mean damn I know I'm cute and everything but yall ain't got to stare at me damn. I walked in and the school hoe Keisha, was already starting starting shit.

" I don't know why everyone looking at these bum bitches. They aint shit and won't neva' be shit." I snapped my head like 'bish whet?' but before I could say something, Awnice opened her mouth.

" Hoe I don't know why you talking shit under your stank ass breath. Everybody know you dumb as hell. The only reason you in the same grade as us is because you slopped up the teachers last year to get your grades up. So bitch you are dismissed."

The whole class erupted into 'ohhh's' and laughed at her ass. If you could see the look on Keisha's face, Awnice and I would be dead right now. She got up and put her hair up and Awnice did the same.

Awnice was like "Bitch wa' you gon do?" Awnice walked to Keisha slowly and Keisha backed up every single time untill her ass was backed against the table. Awnice laughed in her face.

"That's what I thought yo scary ass." As soon as Awnice started to walk away Keisha was getting ready to swing. This bitch tried it.  I ran up on her and started going fool on this hoe.

All I could hear was Awnice yelling.

" Beat her ass B! Beat her ass!"  I felt someone grab my waist, lift me up, and carry me out the classroom. I yelled at them to put me the fuck down, whoever the hell they were. I was met with the most beautiful pair of eyes I have ever seen. They looked like they could see inside your soul. It took me a while to snap out of my daze to see that he was trying to talk to me.  I think he told me his name, but since I was in a daze I didn't hear it. I was getting ready to open my mouth, but the bell rang.

"I hope to see you again, shorty."  He kissed my forehead and walked away. I felt myself looking at his retreating figure in awe.

I turned and Awnice was in my face laughing at what I did to Keisha. She claimed that she didn't know I had that in me. I was tryna listen, but I was to busy thinking about whats-his-name to even care what she had to say. I told Awnice that I was just going to go home. She asked me if everything was okay.

"I aint feeling today no more. I'ma hit you up tonight though."

"Alright".

I hugged her and made my way out the school doors. I walked outside to my car, and drove home. When I got home, everything was quiet so that meant that my "mother" is out fucking for her next buck again. I went to the kitchen, and decided to make me some tacos since it was just me in here. After I got done eating, I went upstars to take me a shower. After I got out, I dressed in my pjs, and went to bed. About 15 mins into my sleep, my mama came bussing into my room yelling.

"What I hear 'bout yo ass fighting in school?!" Maaan, I wasn't trying to hear that shit so I just turned over on her ass. She pulled the covers off of me, and started hitting me with a belt. No lie, that shit hurt like hell, but I refused to let her see me cry. I held that shit in. Since I was making her mad by not crying, she started hitting me like I stole her damn money.  I don't know what it was, but I snapped. Matta'a fact, I knew exactly what it fucking was. I'm tired of her shit. I starting hitting her back, fighting my damn mama over something that I couldn't control. I stopped fighting her, and looked at her shaking my head.

"Get out!"  She yelled. "You think you grown, I'ma treat you like you grown! Get the fuck out my house Blazè!" I looked at her wide eyed,but I did as she wanted.  I packed my shit and left the house.

I walked to Awnice house crying. When I got there, I rung the bell. Awnice answered the door.

"B, what's wrong?"

"Hey Nica girl-" She cut me off.

"Cut the bullshit B. What happened, why are you crying, and why do you have all yo stuff?" I asked her if I could come in, and she stepped aside. She lead me upstairs and showed me the guest room. We sat my stuff down, and I explained to her what happen. She told me I could stay here for as long as I needed to. Now, I know what ya'll are thinking, 'Where are Awnice's parents?' Well, Awnice's parents left her when she was 13. They said they were going to the store, but never came back. So Awnice has been providing for herself ever since.

I got myself settled in and me and Awnice talked for a little bit 'til the both of us felt like it was time to go to sleep. Awnice made sure I was under the covers, before she went over to the door to go to bed herself. She turned to me.

"B, I know everything seems hard right now, but it will get better". A tear slipped out my eye as I heard the door close. After I let out a few sobs, I finally went to sleep.

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