just some depressing poems

poem 1

My world is unstable 
thoughts of suicide filling my mind
People who degrade me 
laughing in my face because I believed them
I thought I could learn to love but turns out 
The person I love is the one to 
hurt me and lie to my face…
Making trusting so much harder 
How can love when you can barely trust
Watching my whole world fall 
Crashing to the ground around me 
People tell me to “get over it” 
But you can’t rewrite your past 
You can’t write your future because 
Its unpredictable 
You can only find people to help rebuild that mess 
But when that fails and it crumbles all over again
When your begging for help
While you silently scream 
While you silently cry 
While you silently to commit suicide 
I know… that feeling
Cause it keeps happening to me…
All the time…
I silently beg someone to help me 
Cause silently i’m wishing to die 
I want to pick up that blade 
I want to tie that rope 
I want to write the last words 
But i won’t...