Sensei just be with me! (Kakasaku) (being edited)

Chapter 14- Under lock and key.

I reached the stair well that lead to the top floors of the communal exterior of the apartment block. I stood stock still.
What if I get my answer? And then it's all over? And I'll never be able to look at him in the same way? Will he even see me?

Frustrated with my self I jump step up to the second step. I burst into a run. I think more than anything I just want to see him.
Reaching the top of the stairs and rounding the corner into the hallway I see his door. '216' I step up to a few paces back from the door.

"Here goes nothing" I sigh I guessed the Anbu was watching and were going to intervene but after three short knocks and no response nothing happens. The door doesn't open to a masked kakashi reading, as so many times id been greeted by before.

Days went past this way, I'd wake up discontent and empty I'd Knock at Kakashi's door and when I didn't get an answer I'd go home and I wouldn't leave the house. I'd been given temporary leave from the hospital when my mother stormed the Hokage's office with me in toe and defended why I didn't look like I was getting any better.
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I woke up this morning like any other since I got back. Sad and oppressed by feelings I didn't want.
I got up and looked out side, another beautiful day in konoha. I slump a little and slide my legs slowly over the edge of the bed. I hadn't worn pyjamas last night, just slept in my underwear.
Looking at my self in the mirror I was sick with my appearance, thin and sickly looking. I bit my lip and ran my hand over my stomach. 'Thin' I said under my breath.
Pulling my Chiffon curtains back I let the full light hit me. I could see Kakashi's apartment from here. I dressed in my jonin clothes. I looked at the slip of paper with his words.
I kiss my finger tips and place them on his signed name.

"I trust you" I whispered.

I stuffed my headband in my pocket and combed my hair with my fingers.
Ambling out into the landing I could hear that my mother was in the first argument of the day.
I came down the stairs and she stopped when she saw me.

"Aren't you just a fucking Ray of sun shine" I mutter. She hears me and glares angrily at me.

"WHAT did you just say?!" She screeches.
I walk towards the door and get another question that tips me over the edge.
"Where the hell are you going?!" She roars. I gritt my teeth and turn around. I clench my fists.

"I'm going to the Hokage to find my own God damned apartment! I can't stand living here anymore!" That shuts her up and I storm out the door.

I knew I'd been too harsh but I need to get out of there my mother is crazy!
I walk towards Kakashi's building again. It's been five days since I found his note. This is killing me, if you haven't noticed.

"Hey sakura!" Calls tamari. I freeze like a deer at the end of a kunai.
She comes up to me and embraces me. And then the realisation hits her.

"Sakura, what have you done to your self?" She asks looking at my tiny waist and limp pale hair.

"I'm not feeling very well" I said lowly. Faking a small smile. I'm not feeling well but it's my heart that aches and my mind that is tired.

"Ah girl, I'll run by yours tonight with the girls we can have a good night" she said rubbing my arm.

"It will be fun, you'll feel better"
I nod, maybe a distraction would be nice.

"Well Shika is here, see ya' later" I smile and say good bye as she walks away. Shikamaru looks at me a some what look of worry on his face. I wave cautiously and walk on in my direction.

I glance back to see him looking at me still a little concerned and talking to Tamari.
I take a left and then another and I'm on the main road up to the office. And I can see his apartment on the right. I take the right fork and force my self into a light jog.
When I'm about to knock on the door a
swooshing sound of some one teleporting rings in the silence to my left. I look slowly.
A red cloaked figure with a painted Anbu mask stands there.
"Sakura-senpai" she greets. I had only learned of her gender when she spoke. I guess I'm lucky she is infact a girl. Any man would have stopped me and tossed me to Tusnade.
"Have you come to stop me?" I ask expectantly. The girl shakes her fabric covered head.
"Under lock and key he'll be, under the close control of the fifth." I merely look at the girl hidden behind the mask.
"Your telling me where he is?" I ask her sceptically.
"It's our secret" she says placing a finger against her mask where her lips are underneath.
"Why are you helping me?"I ask cocking an eyebrow.
"I think you deserve a little bit of happiness, I had been on sir-valance* for a few months leading up to the mission Kakashi was sent on. I've seen true happiness and I've been to ordered to watch you again and this is
upsetting " I usher a quick thank you.
"You didn't hear it from me" I hear her say.

While back down on the street I stand at the apartment building waiting for it to hit me. Under lock and key? So that means he's locked up, but under close control? I ponder for a minuet and become frustrated with myself. Who would know what the girl meant?
Shikamaru would, but he's a risk.

I'm not sure I want to ask him. Plus! If he asks why I'm asking, can I honestly lie?
I'm not sure I want people to know more than they already know. That could be dangerous.
I could check the archives but that would take too long. Maybe he's in the jails? I sigh heavily. I'd never get past Ibiki and he'd surely have my guts for garters if I tired lying not that I'd be able with him.

I head towards the Hokage building.
I'll just go get my apartment sorted and then hit the books. It wasn't more than two minuets back down the road.

Gliding, as it would feel, through the streets I loose myself in thought.
Gazing through the crowds of people I see a grouping of jonin ninja with a taller broader man in a cloak. Just the man you'd never expect to see out from his natural habitat. Ibuki. Jolting into a light jog I follow them into the building. Their hushed whispered intriguing me. Something is going on.