..I wasn't been like this since the time I meet him, even me cannot figure it out what am I suppose to do if I finally confess what I feel for him..
..My love defies definition that even me cannot tell..
..It's too hard to love someone whom you doesn't know if he will loves you back..ang saklap kayang isipin na di ka kayang mahalin ng taong minamahal mo dahil may mahal din siyang iba,,..at BESTFRIEND pa niya... " loving a friend is good but, loving a friend beyond friendship is a different story."
..now that im near to the end..
..I know deep inside I want to stay because I can't really imagine How I love this man sana alam niya yun..
I admit mahal na mahal ko siya at sa kanya ko lang siguro nasabi na kaya kong ibigay ang lahat!!! Tama! LAHAT!! ngayon lang ako nagmahal ng ganito... No wonder, napagod na rin naman ako kakalaro kaya ngayon nadapa di ko na kinaya pang bumangon dahil ako mismo naging masaya sa taong binagsakan ko, minahal ko nang totoo ang taong to na nasasabi kong di ko na alam ang salitang sumuko dahil alam kong dito lang ako sasaya..
Wala naman talaga akong hinihiling ngayon kundi mapasakin siya..
..call me selfish i'll just accept it totoo naman eh maramot ako pag siya na ang pinaguusapan kasalanan ko ba na ganun ko siya kamahal na kahit buhay ko kaya kong isakripisyo para sakanya...
Making things oh so possible make me realize the more you strive the more you have those in your world trying to reminisce the things you have to recall no matter how I've tried to I'm still longing for this guy to love me back..
All the odds that I've been through I'm still here standing still to be strong for everyone around me cause there's no room for me to be weak in times of my worst there's no sense of making some move that is so undesireable, well im here for this moment to let this crazy thing happened..
Like I used to, there's no sense of being happy if you don't feel pain..
All of us needs someone by our side for the sake of being whole, even me all I want right now is HIM but now I've must to work for it to achieve those ideas and I dont want to set aside those cause it's the only way to reach the only star
..how I wish I can cry but I can't, no matter how pain it is...All I can do is to swallow my pride when it comes to him maybe i'm just so soft but then how tried to be as hard as the rock I can't refrain to think what's happening into his life...
..bullshit!!! I can't imagine myself being like that to a guy..I admit I've fall for him so bad but then I have to bear in mind that I have also to set my walls that nobody can break..I have to be deaf and blind I should protect myself from any harm that is coming...
I know it's not the end but I have to close all the doors just to prevent my self from being zero balance...
Lakas ng tama nuh???well for pete's sake it's true, I can love, you can love and all of us can love we don't need to run after it all we have to do is to cherish the moment that we have and enjoy this moment..
I doesn't know kng kelan ngng mali ang pagmamahal, cguro ung ngmamahal at ung minamahal, dahil hindi ito nasusuklian. That is the sweetest mistake I did in my whole life, loving too much but I got nothing in return. I know I have no right to complain co'z I'm not the only one experiencing that f**king sh*t feeling, co'z there is someone that I cause him the same burden as mine...
..kaya nga may word na QUITS dba???
..dahil di ka nagiisa..
..sa pinagdadaanan mo..
..kasi di lng ikaw ang nsaktan my nsaktan ka rin yun nga lng unfair sa part niya..
..dpat kpag nsaktan ka huwag ka ng mandamay ng iba..
..tsk2..
How many times do I have to try if its not working at all, pain is all I have no matter how I tried to convince myself that I have to lose you..
God damn!!!
..I can't imagine myself begging for love that it can't be mine..
It's absolutely true that it is so hard to own someone if its actually not yours..Nakakapagod din kaya umasa, Umasa sa mga bagay na alam mong sobrang dali kung iisipin pero kung gagawin mo na "ai p*t**g*n*" ang hirap at ang sakit2x!!!
Dito ba lahat napupunta sa situasyon na to ang mga taong nagmamahal ng sobra2x???
..ang dami kong satsat..
..ako nga pala si Erica Denise Ongpauco Locsin, some of my friends call me "Den" o kaya naman "Ika", I'm 19yrs. old at this moment.. Nasasabi ko lahat ng mga bagay na yun dahil, so simple I keep on falling but no one ever catches my heart and prevent it from crashing..
Sabi nila I grow up with a silver spoon in my mouth, well half true, I have a loving parents who's willing to provide what I want but thenI can't blame them to make me transfer to a school that I doesn't want , but then I'm too good to disobey what they want for me kaya eto ako ngaun. Shall I say nagpapakatanga sa isang taong makakapgpasaya sakin ng lubos...
