Guilty Space Program

GSP

Dear Marc, you know that feeling you get when you are really young, the one where you've done something bad, and your stomach is beating up itself as if there is a war between butterflies and ants in there. Well, that's how I felt, scared, hopeless, though you would always hope for hope, but you knew that you had done the wrong thing, wether it's stealing a packet of sour worms and getting caught, or when you've activated an incredibly dangerous bomb that sent out miles of radiation, well not just miles, around Earth, and even a bit further, i remember when i was young, and i did something wrong, i would get terrified, if my parents found out about me stealing these sour worms, they would kill me. But this was different, people were going to find out who did it, i knew that, I guess i can be proud, my Mother always told me if you do something you regret, try thinking of the positives. She would get mad at me when i stole, but she would always sit me down and say "hey, at least you got some sweets" it might not be the best way to live by, but i always loved it, no matter what you were doing. You were always the good guy. My positives thoughts to the radiation overload were, maybe civilisation will come to understanding, and figure something out, and maybe the world can be more than the only planet in our solar system that has living creatures, what if we could also become the most intelligent, but what if we already  were? No one has ever seen the extra terrestrial, I always wanted too. You would expect by the year 2030 we would of at least come close, but no, no one is willing to risk there lives just to see some underling compared to humans. Some scientests say that humans are the most intelligent creatures in the universe, without any proof, that is. People were getting curios as to what was beyound the galaxy, and that's why the government invented GSP, (Guilty space program) GSP is a program where those who have severely broken the law, must go into space, and spend the rest of their life traveling the universe, transmitting data to scientists, most members of GSP end up commiting suicide, it's practicially torture, the only proof we may have of the extra terrestrial is one time a whole crew of GSP dissapeared, it might have been some sort of wormhole, but the connection of GSP ships are supposeably light years ahead of any other spaceship, but one day, they just dissapeared, it was literally impossible to track them down, some scientests thought maybe the pressure was incredibly forceful and pushed them down in the speed of light and crushed them, but that was just a theory, and i thought it was an unrealistic theory, another negative to being in the GSP is it is piloted from earth, there are 5 criminals on each GSP ship, there are thousands of space tube foods on board, but it's hardly edible, each member has to wear a special suit, it's is a leathery substance and has 5 cameras inserted into it, one in front of each arm, one behind each arm and one on the head, which is some kind of hood, with a mask over it. One also possible theory as why the previous GSP dissapeared was some sort of alien, that could camoflague and was at supersonic speed took the ship and did god knows what with it, but it seemed highly unrealistic, but what was really realistic these days? Why am i saying all this? it's because i am now a member of GSP, they saw me blow up the radiation tank, even though it was an accident, the world will jump at any oppurtunity to see any signs of extra terrestrial, it became an obession over the past 10 years, where there was a leginitmate U.F.O sighting, it was no plane or zeppelin, it was scary, it was a nightmarish sight, and i wish i never saw it. The one and only positive thing in the GSP was you could send a message once a month to a friend, not family, only a friend and they were given strict orders not to tell anyone what they had read, and that's why  I am sending this to you Marc. You are the one i want to share my adventure with, if you can even call it that, all i want to say is, don't worry about me, and keep your radiation mask on, yeah, sorry about that, it's just me now, a 27 year old man, aboard a ship with 4 criminals, wish me luck and i hope i get a peak at the extra terrestrial, will write again to you in a month, if i am still alive.

your regards, Jake.