Teen Tales

TALE 1

    Moving into a new city is hard when you are a teenager and you have anger issues, anxiety, and depression. You try to act like everything is fine, but deep down you know it's not. You fight a lot with everyone. When you beg your mom, the only parent you have with you, for help, and you tell her you need to talk to someone about your problems, she says you are faking depression for attention. The feelings of guilt and sadness are creating a comfy place in your soul, and you realise later that it will be attached on you forever. Soon you began manifesting violence and psychopathic behaviour with your family, hurting them emotionally and physically. You enjoy seeing them suffering. Lately you scream for help, but no one can hear you. It's just you, alone, in a dark place in your mind. Your family hates you, you have no real friends, all of them are fake. You get lost in your mind every time you talk to someone because you think to much. You can't act like yourself.
      You are stuck in your head with your thoughts. You cant sleep because memories of what felt like a million years ago rewind in your head. Sometimes, at night, you sneak out on the roof and watch a cloudy sky because of the pollution. If you are lucky you find a new cigarette and you light it up, inhaling the smoke in your lungs and then doing tricks with it. A little bit of joy gets into you when you see the circles of smoke rotating in the air. As you stare at the lights of the buildings with cold and dead grey eyes and the wind slowly dancing with your hair you realise something. You realise you want to change something about yourself, on the outside and on the inside. You change your garderobe, you start working out, dye your hair and do good thing, but at one end, sitting on your bed  and staring at the  white you realise this was in vain. You turn the heaters on, open your computer and start watching a movie while hugging a pillow. Everything you did was for nothing because you still don't feel loved.
    You try and talk to a teacher, who later talks to your mom, but she still doesn't change her mind about getting help. You start acting like a happy kid and do jokes, but when you are alone rivers of  tears start flowing from your eyes. You wait for your dad to visit. " Ten more days" you say out loud, so you can stop yourself from crying. You put yourself into bed, but your sleep is full of nightmares...

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this is my first chapter so don't hate hope you like it. Imma try and post once or twice a week if i have time