Chill Out! [ SonAmy Story ]

Chapter 11 • Repudiation

"I like you."

I slowly opened my eyes to see his meeting mine, his eyes widened. "Oh... um.." He stuttered. He took a drink of his coffee and laughed, "You must be joking."

My eyes widened, I immediately felt my eyes become wet. "Wha-what?? No, I'm not joking Josh." I said, shocked.

"Actually, ever since we met in middle school. I developed feelings for you and ever since until now, I liked you." I explained.

He laughed a bit and stopped. His expression suddenly changed from happy to a sadder stare. "I'm sorry, Amy. I appreciate your feelings, and I really do." Josh said with a small smile.

Did he just force a smile? I...

"But I only think of you as a friend. No, like a small sister." Josh said.

"Amy, you are really a talented and amazing person. And I think you are the sweetest and the most caring person I knew. But... I don't feel the same thing for you. I'm sorry." He said.

I looked down and nodded, "Oh... is that so?" Josh chuckled and gave me my drink before he said, "Don't worry, someone will surely like you back someday! You just need to know the right person at the right time." I gave him a small smile, "Okay." Although I wanted to cry, I've realized that if I did, I'm just crying over spilled milk. I cannot force him to like me back even though I like him that much, and I also definitely couldn't control his feelings. In the end, I just need to respect his answer and move on.

We spent the whole hour chatting about our plans on how to portray our school in our school yearbook for new applicants and stuff like that. I could see that he's trying his best to cheer me up to make me forget about what happened earlier, and it's true, he still does care for me. Once our little hangout was over, I waved him goodbye before he got on the taxi to go home. Leaving me here in front of the shop, with a small smile but with eyes that could tell a thousand words.

I do respect his answer. It's just that, after all these years of trying my best to improve my image in front of him so that he won't treat me like a little kid anymore and consider me as someone who is worthy to be by his side, It was thrown in the mud instead. 

Unable to hold my tears back, I ran down the road, cold and exhausted from the encounter. Is this how people feel when they've been rejected? I ran a couple of meters more until I finally stopped at the park. I wiped my tears away and went up to the hill, me and Sonic went up last time. There, I stood, in front of the sun setting, crying. 

"Fool, did you really think he'll like you back?" I muttered, as I wiped my tears but ended up crying again. After all this time, he still just treats me like a kid.  I knelt down and continued to wipe my runny tears with my hands. I wanted to stop crying. But I couldn't. Josh didn't do anything wrong. He only told me what he felt for me back. And I respect it. But... it hurts.

As expected, I was rejected. Although I knew that there was a higher chance of me being rejected, I still wanted to try because maybe somehow he likes me back. After gambling my feelings for him, in the end, I was rejected after all. I was afraid of this rejection at the start, and I think that I should have never told him about what I feel. How many times I told myself that I shouldn't cry anymore and I should just focus on what I want to for the rest of the year, but here I am, crying over it.

"Oh wow! Look at Amy, so weak! Hahahaha!" Regina said, pushing me down the floor. The lunch tray I was holding crashed on the floor alongside me, "What did I ever do to you?!" Tears started to fall down my cheek.

"Oh wow, the little kid is crying and talking back? How shameful. Here, let me teach you how to respect your older peers." Regina smirked. She immediately grabbed my hair and began tossing me around like I was a doll. A bunch of her minions also joined, they then started to kick me and slap me.