Life of a singer

First 14 years of my life

Hi, I'm Kelly
I was born and raised in a small country in Europe named Estonia. I have a older sister, Lily who is 4 years older than me. And a younger brother, Jüri who is 2 years younger than me. I usually call him Boobs or Boi. I have a cat and a dog who belongs to my grandma (Merry) so we really don't see them a lot. My cats name is Fox and the dogs name is Wifi. If you ask me it's a weird name for a dog especially a girl dog. I was born may 31, 1994. 
I love to sing and dance and act and do sports. I have a love hate relationship with my mom and dad. I love my sister and brother but sometimes I wanna cut their heads off. Normal sibling relationship. I don't really have friends and I'm okay in school but I don't like it that much.

When I was still little my grandma lived with us. So it was Merry, my dad, my mom, my sister, me and my brother. I don't really remember a lot bout my early childhood. I remember me and my brother being close. We always played together and with our cousin who would come and visit sometimes. We played dress up, home, doctor, police, and we'd roll ourselves in our blankets so that we were snakes and we'd roam around the house. And we'd take old mattresses and slid down the stairs but when we did that our dad would get really mad at us and punish us. I remember life being really fund before school. Every winter snow would fall down and we'd play all day in the snow. And at fall we'd play in the leaves and in the nearby playground.

When I started school I was so excited cause my best friend seance birth (Mia) was in the same class as me. But as soon as I got in my class and I went to talk to her, she was with someone else and acted as if she never knew me. The first year in school I didn't really have friends, I kinda talked to everyone and was on good terms with everyone in my class. In school I loved to talk to and hug Lily every time I saw her in the hallways. A year later my mom will tell me to stop that cause she doesn't like it. I don't really have a problem with my first school year. Then I dreamt of being a baker and owning my own bakery. I loved music lessons and was in the schools choir. I absolutely hated reading. I don't know I've never liked reading books I think there boring so I wasn't a fan. Especially when we had to read out loud to the whole class, cause I was a slow reader and it was embarrassing.

Second grade I don't really remember. I remember we had a new class teacher. Did not like her at all. From the moment I met her there was just something off with her and I just never liked her. I remember in second grade I was more fo the loner. Wasn't friend with anyone but when it was a group project or something like that I was always with people and not alone. Lunch I didn't really like. Okay the food wasn't good at all, so I just didn't eat. Well sometimes when there was something good then I ate but mostly not. My grades weren't that good, I mean they weren't bad but my mom and dad wanted only A's and I had C's. I remember my mom and dad starting to fight a lot and my mom yelling at me cause I didn't have good grades. I remember one night specifically. It haunts me till this day. My mom was yelling at me and I was balling crying as always and my dad coming in and somehow ending her yelling at me. I always saw him as the hero who saved me form my mom yelling at me. And later in the night when we were going to sleep, I remember hearing my mom and dad yelling in their room and me and Boobs crying cause they were yelling and Lily coming to us and hugging us and telling us that it was gonna be okay.  There were many more night like that, I don't remember all of them cause there parts of my life that I don't want to remember.

Third grade wasn't very different. Mom, me and dad all started fighting more. Mostly me and mom but also mom and dad. My brother started first grade and he also started yelling and fighting with my mom. I didn't t really talk to my sister. It felt like she pushed herself away and was always in her room. We didn't really talk, for a few years I felt like I didn't even have a sister.

In fourth grade we started getting actually grades like A's and B's instead of + and - . This really made mom mad cause now she could really see what grades I was getting and she was not happy one bit.  Otherwise it was pretty much the same.

In fifth grade my grades were falling and it wasn't good. Me and mom were fighting almost constantly. Oh one time we also got a new TV and our dad let us play with the cardboard and we made it into a slide somehow. And idk how but I guess the scissors were somewhere on the floor but when Boobs slid down he somehow got the scissors stuck in he's stomach and had to go to the ER. The doctor said he could have almost died.  I didn't really talk to Lily, it always felt like she wanted to be alone. But one time she asked if I wanted to watch Harry Potter with her, and then we watched all the movies together. Me and my mom would sometimes not fight and we would make some desserts together. Those were the good memories I still kinda remember. I was kind off friends with one class mate, Kris. I slept over at her house once and we were talking for a while but that ended quickly cause she started being friends with Mia.

Sixth grade is were my grades were very low and I even had to go and retake some of my test in the summer cause I did not pass them. Otherwise we very still fighting almost daily. By this point I had no friends, I didn't get a long with anyone in my class and nobody really wanted me. Oh this year two new girls came to our class. One was tall and pretty and was friends with everyone popular. The other one... well I didn't really like her. The first lesson she put rolled paper into my collar and she made me bleed. But threw out the year she became my first and best friend. Her name was Anna. I also became more friends with Dom, Kristjan, Mirelle and Adi. Dom absolutely HATED Anna. He'd always bully her in ways and it got to a point we're I even went to the school therapist with Anna. But cause I was friends with Dom I would also make fun of Anna when she wasn't around. I knew it was wrong but I didn't like her but I also liked her. It was weird but I was so happy, I finally had a friends. For the last three years every summer we've spent on the other side of the country in our summer house. It was a cute little farm were we farmed sheep and went swimming in the ocean. Summers spent there are some of my favourite memories.

Seventh grade was the worst. I sucked in every subject and my grades were basically F's. At the star of the year we got two new boys in our class. I like one and Anna liked the other but nothing went farther than just a crush. Mirelle, Adi, Dom and Anna were my only friends and closest friends and I called us the "Loser Squad" cause we were the losers of the class. We also got a new class teacher who I actually liked cause she was our first to third grade English teacher. I still like her to this day. Threw out the year I understood that Anna was more interested in my family life and what they were doing than me. But I had no other friends, she was the one that knew me the most so I kept being friend with her. Even tho there were many times were we hurt each other physically and mentally but we were still friends. By this time I've been in the school choir for seven years. I loved it. Singing was my escape. In the choir was another class mate and her and me became pretty close friends. We'd talk sometime but mostly during choir. Our little friendship ended when she started hanging out with Kris and Mia. I was pretty sad bout that cause she was actually nice and sweet towards me. I had another friend who was a year younger than me (Rasmus) he liked me for the entire year but I just friend zoned him.

This was also the time in my life when I started talking to my sister. I had noticed a few years ago that she had lines on her thighs but she never told me bout them. During this time she told me bout those lines. I still remember it. And she told me all bout her boyfriend that she had during the summer. I remember this time as a monumental moment in my life cause after she broke up with him, we started talking and we would go to the store together and talk and for the first time in years I felt like I had a sister more importantly a true friend.
At the start of summer vacation I had almost all F' and had to retake a lot of tests. Cause I had missed one month of school cause I was too scared to go to lessons. Me and moms relationship wasn't that good, it had gotten better but we were still fighting constantly.

A week before eight grade I had gotten a message from the school that said that I was kicked out. I cried and for the first time I was scared and didn't know what I had done or what I was gonna do. The next day my parents found out and there was constant yelling and fighting. I told the "Loser Squad" that I was kicked out of school. Anna cried and didn't know what she was gonna do, neither did I. Three days before school was supposed to start my mom suggested I go to the school near my home but I really didn't want to. Then she told me about Vodja. The principal of that school was my sister old class teacher and one of my family's good friends and my mom told me that if I wanted to then he'd gladly welcome me there. I was so scared but I had no choice cause I had to go to some school so I said yes. I was going to Vodja.