Introspection || #notadaygoesby

I close my eyes
and still so clearly
see that lil girl
so clearly as if I'm still that lil girl
who came crying home
from the bullies she couldn't fight.

Who had no one to relate to
her family with just elders
telling her
telling a child
to stop being childlike.

I see a girl
who made numerous
bad decisions,
a girl who's had her heart
and trust broken
way too many times.

I see that girl
struggling, rustling, fighting
her way through.

With a handful of misfortunes
but a mind
full of lessons
and experience,
conscience
and immunity,
immunity to the pain
which had grasped her once
as she mumbled
Deja Vu under her breath.

I see a girl
who chose to stop
blaming and complaining,
owing to which
she gained much more
then what seemed at the surface.

It's the very girl I see
when I open my eyes
to the mirror.

I never have
I never will
stop acknowledging that lil girl
for what all she's gone through
for her calm and patience
for making me what I am.
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Hi my name is Shubhangi singh. I'm from Uttar Pradesh, India and this is my entry for the competition #notadaygoesby by my girl Ananya Birla♥️