26th October, 2019
heartbreaks are the worst. it's even worse if family is the main cause of your heartbreak. i need a break from all this, all the pressure i've sustained through the years, maybe, have pushed the limits.
it hurts
everything hurts.
even talking to your family breaks your emotions slowly. there's no one i could talk to, except myself. honestly, having a family so toxic kills you. emotionally and physically. all i want to do is separate from them and find my own world,
but in the end, i always need them.
what can i do?
i'm in a phase where i don't want to live, but don't want to die either. all i can do is just... cry. crying to whoever i worship up there, wishing damn well he exists and try to help me.
god bless all that has happened, will happen, and is happening
—dibs.
