Forbidden love (August Alsina)

Forbidden love - Prolouge

Sierra's POV

"I'm done Sierra!" Mom screamed at me.

"It's too much! Weed. Really? With your sisters in the house?"

I sat there with an unimpressed look on my face, already fed up with where this conversation was headed.

"Calm down mom, it's not like they got ahold of it. They're fine aren't they?"

"That's completely against the point! The problem is that your behavior is too much and I can't deal with you anymore!"

"What're you gonna do then? Send me to live with my dad? Huh? Tell me, do you really think he would want me? He didn't want you and I can see why! All you ever do is moan! C'mon mom, live a little! You're so uptight!"

"See! You don't take anything seriously! It's easy come, easy go with you. I can't ever seem to be enough! So yeah, that's where you're going! Seeing as you're a big woman now who is grown and would much rather prefer to stay with her father who didn't want to know you until a month ago, you can leave and live by your own rules! Just don't dare come crying to me when you realize that life isn't all fun and games!"

Instead of replying to her rant, I just walked away from my mom, glad to finally have an excuse to leave. I was sick and tired of her thinking she was so much better than me. She seemed to have forgotten that only 5 years ago she was an alcoholic who constantly left me until she met Hughie, her husband now. Together they had my two twin 4 year old sisters Eden and Renee.

Don't get me wrong, I love my sisters and my mom, sometimes, but once they were born I just felt totally left out and unwanted, sort of like a burden, which is why at fifteen I started hanging out with a different crowd of people and got involved in the drugs, drinking and gangs. Our group was the only clique that made me feel like I belonged and they were my family away from home.

I wasn't even that bad until about a month and a half ago, when I found out who my biological dad was, who had left my mom when she was pregnant with me. It definitely was a shock and was weird to find out that one of my favorite rappers, The Game, was my father. That's when I spiraled out of control and started to get involved more heavily with my gang, and weed and singing was my escape from a hectic reality waiting for me at the end of my blunt.

I rang the international phone number I had memorized through the past 6 weeks and waited for his heavy voice to soothingly rumble through the speaker.

"Babygirl? What wrong? You okay?"

"Jay, mom kicked me out. I need a one way ticket to you. I can't stay here too much longer without doing something stupid." I mumbled, knowing that I could feel the urge to hit a spliff and get high, resulting in terrible consequences. Oh how I longed for the familiar pineapple Kush to be inhaled and travel into my lungs. Totally engulfing me and removing me from this madness.

"Alright baby, just pack and be at the airport for 12:30am."

"Thank you man. What about my stuff?"

"Don't worry about that, just don't do nothing stupid."

"Okay Jay, thanks, see you soon"

"Alright Babygirl, love you."

I hung up the phone before replying as I had big trust issues and wasn't ready for that commitment yet. I packed my favorite bits and important things like my phone charger and spare headphones and walked to my sisters' bedroom. They slept there peacefully as I walked over to each one, kissed them on the cheek and whispered goodbye.

When I got downstairs, I was faced with my mother staring at me with a blank yet sorrowful expression with Hughie seemingly discreetly smirking. I faced them both and said

"Thank you, but fuck you."

To them not before taking the keys to Hughes all black escalade and driving away from everything I had ever known.

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Sitting on the plane, I thought about leaving London whilst listening to a mix of my cuz skepta and my brothers krept and konan. When my music finally shuffled to My Story by Krept and Konan and asked god when my breakthrough would come, as it was 18 years overdue.

I sat there silently reflecting on my life and suddenly I shocked and scared myself at the same time. I was mortified and horrified at what I had done. I realized that silent tears streamed down my face, but the part that scared me, was the fact that I hadn't shed a single tear in over 5 years, and in that moment alone, I vowed to do only for me, and for me only.

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