A Day In The Life

2

When I don't want to go class
When everyone there is an ass
When I don't feel anything anymore
When the things I liked are now a bore
The real feeling is setting in
All I really want to say is
Fin.

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My mom is on my case about going to her house. It sucks there and I don't feel like I should. I feel guilty. The only real feeling I have anymore. I'm numb to everything except this one thing. Where she tells me I'm breaking her heart and that I'm a terrible daughter. I don't know how to feel. All of this happening before first block...god how will I survive sophomore year?

My first block went swimmingly today. It's the one part of school I actually enjoy. Well, I enjoy it when my mom isn't blowing up phone. I also enjoy it when my supposed "best friend" isn't causing drama left and right. Don't get me wrong...when it's just me and her hanging out it's fun. When other people come around it's a different story.

Interrupting my thoughts she speaks up, "Did you hear what happened last weekend?"
"No." I replied.
"Everyone thinks Kayla is in love with Joshua but Joshua is dating Addy. They broke up twice already though. Addy also likes Kayla's ex and confessed this to him. Meanwhile, I'm talking to Addy and asking her how the hell she can like 2 people at once?!"
"Don't go poking around in too much drama Sadie. You might get too wrapped up in it and become part of it." I jokingly replied, because I knew she'd love to be in the drama.
"Don't test me Nadia! I'm just kidding but seriously what should Kayla do! I really don't think she's in love with Joshua."
"You're just saying that cause you like Kayla" I say, making fun of Sadie subtlety.

After taking our seats in class she looks at me and whispers,
"Shut up."

"Ok Ok." I breathe.

The rest of the school day goes on like this. Me, dodging people I hate in the hallways and in class. The bus ride home is always exciting though. We got some weird juniors who ride that bus and sometimes they are pretty funny.

Other times they make me question how they are functioning humans.

As soon as I got off the bus my fake smile drops and I peel off the metaphorical mask I've kept on all day, and I become myself. I enter my house to see my dad on a work call, my step-mom yelling at my brothers about something again. And my sister asleep at 3pm.

We're not usually allowed to take food upstairs but since I'm invisible to them I can get away with it. I guess that's one of the advantages to being not noticeable.

I raced up the stairs so I could get started on my "homework". "Homework" meaning sleeping while disney movies are playing in the background.

Just as my eyes were about to close, my phone rings. It's an unknown number.