jam oneshots | for the soul~

confessions.

some sweet lil fluff set in season 5 after Pam gets back from New York x
also i saw Falsettos in the west end yesterday and i still think Whizzer is sexy af okay bye 

"So tell us, Pam- if you wouldn't mind..." the Camera man adds, "please tell us...what is it you like about Jim so much? Or even love?"
 
"Oh, Gosh." She looks down and her face goes red, but there's a large smile plaguing her face that tells the crew that she has thought about this question a lot. She twists a curl around her finger and tries to ignore the blush on her cheeks. "Jim? I...well, we've only been dating for a little under a year, but...uh, well. I'm really close to him. Then again we've always had a strong connection, even when we were just friends..." her smile is so big it hurts. "He makes me laugh. I believe that's the main reason why I love him...Roy hardly ever made me laugh. He could be funny, but not the kind of the funny I like. I mean...the weird type. I always had the feeling he was cheating on me, but...I never did ask him. Though when I said I wanted to be honest with him after we got back together for a little bit, he acted all bizarre. I think he had done something at some point with some other woman but still, he never told me..."

She sighed and hugged her knees. Pam was wearing trousers today, since it was casual day, so luckily she didn't flash the cameras. "It was so annoying, have to tread so carefully all the time. But...but with Jim, I can just be myself, all the time. And it's amazing. He doesn't mind if I forget to clean up my art equipment, though he can get a little annoyed if he trips over a box of paint..." she giggles. "God. It's so refreshing to be with someone who likes me for me. I don't have to pretend to be somebody I'm not. I've never ever been so happy before. We're living together...and...although we haven't really discussed it...I feel like we...we might have a kid in a year or so. I would like to do that."

"Because if I have his child, then all I can do is hope that kid is gonna grow up to be just like their dad. Because...he is so sweet, and kind, and he's really attractive." She chewed her lip. "Kinda like the opposite of me." She notices Brian the boom mic operator glancing at her in a certain way, but she brushes it off. Pam thinks he's a nice guy, though he can look at her a little oddly at times. Maybe he has a thing for her? She doesn't ask him.

"He's given me the confidence to not only be me, but to stand up for myself more. I feel 20-feet-tall with him around," she's glowing, radiant. "Even in the bedroom...okay, sorry, I went a little too far just then. But he's still given me a lot in the relationship, and I feel...beautiful." She smiled. "It's selfish, I know. Maybe I'm using him for the rush. But I truly love him as well, though the way I'm talking makes it sound like I'm only using him. I'm truly in love with him, though. He's beautiful, did I mention that? His eyes are bright and full of love and adoration, and his hair is soft and fluffy, and oh my dear god his smile is to die for..." she shivers just thinking about him.
"And don't get me started on his body. Mainly cuz I think that's going a little too far for a general discussion..." she blushes again.

"But he's not just stunning on the outside. His personality is beautiful too. He's so kind to me. It's not very often people are genuinely interested in me for my personality, especially guys. They only see...uh, certain things," she chews her lip and swiftly buttons up her cardigan, hoping the crew will catch her drift. "But not Jim. He's with me because...I make him laugh, and I'm nice to him...I hope, at least. And he's the same for me. He's nice, and he makes me laugh all the time. Plus he makes me feel like I'm beautiful, like I'm worth something. All I can say is...well, I hope he feels the same about me." Her smile is huge again. "Because I want to spend the rest of my life with him."

"Okay, well, thank you for your time Pam, you may go now." The camera man says. Pam smiles once more and nods. "Thanks for having me." She gets to her feet and walks out, instantly going over to Jim's desk to kiss him.

The camera man grins. "Those idiots really are in love, ain't they?" He turns to look at Brian, who doesn't look so sure. "I guess," he murmurs, "Anything can happen, though, right? They've still got a long way to come..." he folds his arms following putting his equipment down. The camera man nods. "That may be true. But they're a strong couple. I'm sure they'll make it."

Brian says nothing - he doesn't have to. He knows that, whatever may happen, Pam will always love Jim and Jim will always love Pam. It was written in the stars.