An Unknown Love [Joker Love Story]

Big Problems

"Oh. My. God. I still can't believe it, i should never have did it *sighed*. What would it change anyway? One day I would have know it, but it would have been too late to do anything about it and what can I do about it? What will the guys think of me? What would everyone thtink of me?"

The next day

I woke up really early this morning, with the feeling that I might puke. ARGHH! What have I done for stuff like that to happen to me. The good thing is, that i get my memory back. Bit by bit. But the present is more important right now.

Flashback

-"Ok, now it's time"

I took a deep breath and waited for the "P" test to load. I frozed. It was written really clearly "PREGNANT -1 week"        I dropped the plastic tube. I started to shake. Fear took me. I started to breath really quickly, my hand on my chest. I stepped back and leaned against the wall. I glanced at the mirror and the "girl" looked filthy and dirty. "Who would want someone like me now? Unpure." My eyes burned. I started to panic again and at the moment I was going to scream, I heard a knock on the door.

-"Mimi? Is everything ok?" JH's voice calmed me down but I still felt so dirty.

-"Yes," I said, "I.....umm......everything's fine."

-"Ok then." I sighed.

I had to do something but now all I needed was a shower.

Today

Everyone was asleep. Apart from me of course. I went around town earlier. Trying to find a solution for my problem. I searched for hours. Everywhere in town, or most of it. I had lunch with the guys in the mall. It was great fun apart from me wanted to go to the bathroom every 5 minutes. Yoseob and Gikwang kept on fighting to have the last piece of pizza. I thought one of them was going to end up in the fountain. I didn't forget my task though.

When I went back to the hotel - I made sure that I would be alone- I passed by "Kio Street". I was totally depressed by the thought that I wouldn't get help. Then , when all my hopes vanished, I passed in front of a clinic. I ran excitedly inside and asked to see someone, that it was an emergency.

I looked at the box of pills that the doctor gave me. He said that eough of it would help me. He said that my problem would be gone forever. He also said "If you think about it, you can't kill someone that isn't alive YET."

I took a deep breath, stared at the box, gave a quick look around the room and took 2 redish pills that i swallowed with water.

"What are you doing?" I jumped at the sound of JH's voice.

-"I don't feel well." I answered anxiously. "It's just painkillers."

-"Ohh, can I have one? My head is a but sore." he said.

Nervoursly I answered, "No sorry, you know......it's for ........umm......girls' stuff"

-"Oh right, sorry, night."

-"Night." I said with relief.

I was so tired. I fell asleep pretty quickly but there is one thing I forgot......I left the box of pills beside me. Clearly visible.