AVNEIL: Love-Hate-Love Story

27. Why do I care for her?

"PLEASE READ AUTHOR'S NOTE AT THE END OF THIS CHAPTER".

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• Neil •

She left ...

She left leaving me shattered and heartbroken.

She left leaving me all alone with the immense guilt.

She said I'm monster. Am I? 

She said I'm heartless. Am I?

I had never been a cold hearted child. I used to be chirpy bubbly  boy who helped everyone when they are in need. I used to make everyone laugh with my natural talent humor.

But now " What happened to the boy who loved to see other people smile?"

"What happened to that boy who used to be selfless , whether it's about money or any other thing?  then Let me tell you. That cheerful boy dead along with the human emotions long time back and he had become a stone hearted monster who burned a girl dignity and marked her as character less infront of everyone.

Is it true I'm a monster ? yes I'm. coz the things that I have done is more thank worse  that off. But the question is what made me to do all this? Well that is my darkest secret only few close people knew and I even don't want to imagine those days of mine which turned my human emotions off  completely.

Avni..

She is innocent, beautiful girl I have ever met and that was my first impression when I have seen her on road when we fought. Later the unique blend of coincidence made us classmates and from where I started to spent more time with her.

Being with her felt so peaceful for my soul . Her smile.. Her cute words.. Everything made my heart flutter with immense joy .Yes, she brought my orgininality which I never thought I would bring out after my horrific past. And I could feel myself happier in front of her.

But why did she do that?

Why did she broke the trust which I have builded breaking all my walls on her ?

Why did she awoke my inner pain which I have hid behind my heart secretly ?

Why?

That day , her prank still reminds me of the horrific betrayal I had. And the rage that hissed out of my body led me to do all the possible wrost things. I didn't knew I was that much blindfolded with the revenge that I have already crosses all limits of decency. And I made the dirty dead.

I can see the  pain...I can see the
Familiar pain in her eyes which I carried in my orbs a year back. I can feel the hollowness of betrayal in her body.

I can feel she is broken and shattered who wouldn't she? I have made her character loose infront of everyone. I behaved like a  monster.

A human monster.

The thing I did for my selfishness , I haven't released that would be the beginning for my sorrow.

Sadness...

Suddenly sadness drowned in my brain as Now I have realized what I have done. I have committed the sin which would never fade away.

I could never rectify that mistake of mine. Chahe kuch bhi Karlu. I would never bring the joy in her eyes and I would never erase the stamp that I have created in people minds about avni.

Guilt...

The guilt drained through out by body making my heart turn more vulnerable than ever. It travelled through each and every cell of my body to make me feel the pain.