Mariah

Chapter 1: Kraze

"Mr Kenefa you may stand" the judge stated.
I turned to Keon's mum seeing the tears building up in her eyes as our hands began to clench together tighter. It was mid August so the heat in the room was over bearing causing my thighs to stick to my black jeans, I was afraid I was dwelling this day for many months I never ever thought that I'll be in this position I knew what I got myself into when he asked me to be his but I had never though that I'll end up being the girlfriend that has a boyfriend in jail, I never thought.

Keon looked at me as the judge proceeded to begin his sentencing he gave me a slight smile, I did the same looking down straight after. He'd changed so much it was 9 months since his last court date and he'd change so much he was a big man now taller, hencher, has a whole beard ahh it was crazy my baby. The day before we was at Hilton hotel in Canary Wharf we had gone out to eat and just had such a great night, it's like he knew it was about to happen, he knew he'd be gone. I knew what he went to do and I tried to stop him but there is no stopping Keon you can try but he'll only listen once it's to late and the deed is done. He broke my heart,

"Mr Robison I'm sentencing you 10 years and 9 months" my mouth dropped in shock as I heard the number they guy hadn't even died or gained and life changing injuries his mother fell to her knees crying and begging for a change and i didn't know how to react. It was Keon's turn.

"Mr Kenefa I'm sentencing you to 8 years and 4 months" it felt like a punch to the chest I didn't move a bit, I didn't even flinch I just stared at the nothingness at the other side of the court room my heart beat harder and faster, me eyes were tearing up. I wasn't going to cry here I wasn't going to cry in front of anyone. The few lasts words were exchanged in the room and he was taken away I couldn't look at him go especially knowing that this time I'll never see him out here again.

As soon as I left the court room I ran to the toilet and that's when I broke down how could my life end up like this after everything the only person that only ever had my back, made me happy, the only person I'd risk it all for after my mother he had left me. I hated him I really did how could you be so stupid. So many thoughts ran through my head. I didn't want to end what we had though but it was going to I know that was all he was going to say to me "Mariah you know what this means" as he'd say he's been trying to make sure I'll stay by him for the year that he's been in jail and I have we spent our 3rd year together apartment. There's no denying this shit was hard but I think I did a good job I really managed to hold myself together and not cheat or nothing. I mean what I said when I said I was for him only.

After a few minutes i exited the cubicle and saw Keon's mum and I loved this girl with my whole heart like deadass she was always there for me after all the things that had happened and she'll never judge. We didn't even say anything to each other we just hugged tight, I'm sorry I whispered I. Her ear as she nodded while sobbing. We left and went to the rest of the family being his dad and brother and they spoke to me telling me to stay strong and that everything will be okay and so on.
"You want us to drop you" his dad asked
"It's okay thanks my mum is waiting for me at the station" I replied lying
"Okay we'll call you"

I hugged them and made my way. I didn't want to be with them at this point even though it seemed bad. I just wanted to be alone for a second to take everything in properly. I called his best friend Malachai known as Maz to the streets letting him know the news he was here but the court was full so he went to take care of business as per usual. He shouted on the phone swearing and cussing the whole world. After his fit I called up Destiny telling her to come pick me up. She is my older cousin and is  two years older than me being 19,  she's my g for real always had my back since the day I was born . I was going to meet her half way so we could go harrow to our Grandma's.

I made my way to Stratford from Snaresbrook court on train. Looking a hot mess but at this point it was really fuck it. I really got onto the wrong carriage this morning there was about 10 boys on it probably coming back from football . I walked back to the end of the carriage feeling all the eyes stuck to me like got2b. I sat down taking out my phone and putting in my AirPods to play some Wizkid he just makes me happy and calm. A boy sat across from me I payed no mind to him at all he leaned forward with his hands together on his knees and tapped my leg. I took out my AirPod and looked at him waiting for him to say something I recognised his face but I just couldn't tell.
" Yo, you don't seem alright, you okay ?"

"I'm fine, I'm sorry do I know you ?" I questioned

"Nah but you should get to, let me put a smile on that face "

"Oh no" I put back in my AirPod

He laughed and looked down tapping my leg again, I took out my AirPod again waiting for him to speak

"Okay give my your insta we can work with that" he asked but demanded at the same time

I put my hand out for his phone, insta wasn't deep I didn't owe him a follow back a reply or nothing.

He passed me his black XS max and I typed in my name put my AirPod in and gave him back his phone now standing up to get off the train.

"So no bye then" he shouted as I walked away

Mariah (17)

Kraze (18)