once there was a 👧 named hanna . hanna liked a 👦. she was 😱 that if she told him he would not 👍 her. it was very hard not to show her 💕 feelings.
i mean she saw this 👦 every day . hanna thought the problem was bc she was not as 👸 as the other 👧👩👸. this made her 😢 .
ok enough with that stuff lets talk like teenagers now. Everyone has there problems i get that but some problems i wish no one had . i hate how boys treat girls . i also hate how girls are always being put down because the are not the stick figure silicone barbie doll. there is a group of guys at school that i have liked forever but im just so scared to get rejected why … maybe bc I'm not considered very pretty my mom says I'm gorgeous but i think she just says that bc she is my mom of corse she is kinda forced to say that i mean i want to believe her and dont get me wrong other people tell me too but only 2 guys have ever told me that so when people tell me i am i just say well tell that to the boys
ok lets hit another issue i know im not the smallest person on earth but i am not the biggest either do you know how many days i have come home and cried bc of what boys have told me about my weight ii has lead my mom and me to both believe that is why i am depressed well that and bc my uncle that i was close to died almost a month ago i wish people were mind readers some time so they could hear some of the stuff that goes on in my head i know i am probably just rambling on and on about my problems i want to make some thing where i could give advice to other girls my age bc come on at some times we all need some i have currently really been loving the song not about angels i really relate to this song it is really emotional i cry every time i hear it i really like putting all of my feeling on paper i get to express them without really having to tell anyone all doctors or therapist say it is good to share emotion but doing this is a good stress reliever and you dont have to worry about people telling you secrets (if your heart was full of love could you give it up) al line from the song any way i wish i knew why i am so depressed all the time i wish i could just find a friend i could tell anything to and i did his name was uncle ricky but now he is with the real angels so i dont get to physically tell him my problems anymore but i know he is reading every word that I'm writing he knows it before i even do oh i wish i could have him back just for one day to tell hi goodbye just one just one oh what i would do i miss him so much even though i want him back i would never wish to have him back the way he was that would be selfish i would want him healthy and well living i have went to the cemetery a couple times just to talk to him every one tells me they know what im going through but they really dont for once i don't want people to make it about them for just once me me i want to say that i know were he is now and i would rather have him there
