People say that,
'whenever or whoever you find love towards the love of your life, they will cherish them forever to give them their
...love...
...Affection...
...Emotions...
...Completed...
But for me...I'm out of the picture like everyone else...
...I can't feel anything...
...No Emotions...
...No Expression is shown...
...No Anything...
The only feeling I felt for years...
...I felt empty...
...A living Void...
...
...Incomplete...
When I was a child, I didn't understand what was wrong with me while the other children picked on me for being different and not like them. It was quite unexpected that no matter how many times I was being picked on every day...I don't feel a thing with emotions.
My mother desperately tried to help me with my "problems". She wants a normal child and a happy life for me and herself including...my father.
My father, however, is nothing like my mother, he even told me that he felt exactly like me when he was a child. He told me that someday...I will meet someone special to feel something, that someone will fix me by putting me back together.
My mother awfully disagrees never wanting to hear such words towards me...and told me 'never take your father's advice, understand' for such a young age I was in...I never fully understand what she meant by that...
Every day my mother wanted to help me become like the other children...but...
...it never worked...
...Seeing my mother desperately around me... made me feel...
...pity...
I felt sorry for that woman doing everything she can to fix me back to normal...
...As years passed the same as usual, me being pushed around, picked on most often days, and do everything they do to me for me to know I'm weird...
...So then I began to realize all those emotions I've been seeing from other people, and they never get picked on ever since...
...And the way of seeing my mother everyday being...
...depressed...
...So I pretended to be "normal" and the bullying stopped, everyone seemed more comfortable around me, and not seeing me in a weird way every day before I pretended...
I pretended every day, making the people not knowing this is all a fake...I even pretended to be happy in front of my mother to make her happy...
...But I know deep down inside her, that I was just pretending to not worry about me...
...So in school days passed, I started to pretend that I have...
...Friends...
...Hobbies...
...Emotions...
...Care...
...Fun...
....
...But really I felt nothing, everything I do nothing works...I'm sick of pretending something that I can't feel...
...I want to feel...something...
...ANYTHING...
...
...But it never worked...
...It's clear to me that I can't feel anything ever since...
...I still remember my father's words knowing I will meet someone special...
...I still believed it, knowing I will be complete no matter what...I'm determined to find out in the future upon me...
...Until one day,
...I was on my way to school until I bumped into someone I fell to the ground including the person I bumped into fell as well, I looked straight at him repeatedly him saying 'I'm sorry' once he opened his eyes...
...I felt...
...Something more...
♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
...I found him...
♡He IS the one that made me feel complete
To make me feel♡
♡♡♡
I want him to be mine
...I need him...
...
...If someone is trying to take away my chance to a better life, then go ahead...
...Try me...
...I will get what I want...
...Whatever it takes...
...He matters to me...
...I don't care about anyone else...
...I don't care what mess I spill...
...I don't care about hurting his feelings towards anybody else...but for me...
...I'll make sure of that, it'll go according to plan...
...
He
Will
Be
Mine~♡
...He doesn't have a choice to love me or not...
♡
♡
♡
♡
♡
...I'm coming for you...
Senpai~♡
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Senpai~💌 (On Hold)
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