Let me start out by saying that I am extremely happy with the amount of people that actually read this and like it. This is literally insane having this much "popularity" if you want to call it that. Although my topic for this entry is going to be on the lighthearted and have some kind of structure to it instead of my randomness.
Everyone has someone or something in life that they love, right? It could be a family house pet or simply your favorite flavor of cotton candy, but love is a word that human beings have been using for decades and even centuries; love is expressed in many languages and cultures, but they all still have the same meaning behind them.
What love means to one individual over billions is your own person set of beliefs. Love to me, however, means many things.
Love is trusting someone enough to tell your deepest and/or darkest secrets to and them not exposing them.
Love is caring for someone so much you literally push your way around someone just to grab the door for them.
Love is letting someone cry on your shoulder, even if you have no advice or anything to make them feel better. For some, just having someone there for them is all they need. At least they aren't alone.
Love is goofing off with someone all hours of the night about things that are so irrelevant In this world, but you talk to them to make conversation and build a relationship.
Love is laughing your asses off over the stupidest shit, and then not remembering what you were laughing about afterwards
And love, to me... is this indescribable feeling you get when you are with this person(s) and you feel as though you're destined to be with them for the rest of your life.
That's what I have right now. Someone who loves me so unconditionally enough to stand me (Lmao), and to just be there for me and vice versa. His name is Dylan Matthew Hammers and I love the ever loving hell outta him. (Sorry Dylan for using your middle name, but I'm making a point 😂).
This man... I dont even know where to begin. He's awkward, quirky, unique, kind, loving, lovable, considerate, a gentleman, and of course humorous. That's all I have ever dreamed of having in a guy. The other guys I used to date were man hos and couldn't care about me in any other way than getting in my pants, I was also attracted to these people. However, I found that this isn't love. This was just a crush and nothing more. I didn't fall in love with that person(s) nor did I ever feel anything for them to begin with looking back. I thought I was in love, but it's better to wait on someone who will show up out of the complete blue and learn to fall in love. It's not all about looks or what's on the outside, but it is important and crucial to what's on the inside.
It's not all perfect either. We have recently been having arguments texting, but when we see each other it's different and we are nice, loving, etc. I believe it's the being away from each other part that is affecting us. We usually only see each other three days a week and the rest we are doing homework or working and can't make time, as much as we want to, to go see each other. This is a learning experience, but we make sure to talk it out instead of yelling or in a texting case, capital letters lmao, to get our points across. This is what brings us closer instead of being irrational.
He is such a loving guy though. I love him with my entire soul. I could go on forever and ever about him, but I don't want to make this anymore longer than you guys can stand. Just, if you ever feel alone, know that you will feel that way. There's no getting around it. The only thing is, when you wait, there is a greater chance for someone to sweep you off your feet out of the complete and utter blue than it is rushing into a relationship that isn't going to work out anyways. Waiting gives you time to think about what you want in a relationship, how you want it, and how you know you should be treated. That's what's most important.
That's all I have to conclude this section! Thank you guys so much for the 139 votes on my book... this absolutely means a lot to me and most of all, thank you for the 500+ reads. You have no idea how much this means to me at all. This journal is now #85 in random and that to me is such an accomplishment. I really appreciate you all <3
Stay slayin' :D
