The Lying Pirate and the Anxious Author ~{ anxiety x deceit }~

chapter 3-Party Time Part 2

(I'll let ya guys know when to put the song on. Trigger warning: swearing a little)

"Seems the children have taken a liking to you, Virgil" I hear Logan's voice say, I turn around to see an amused Logan and a slightly mad Roman. "Seems so" I say then smile.

I hear Roman mumble something that made the kids chuckle. "What'd you say princey?" I ask. He crossed his arms then stomped off. What I say? "d-did I say something wrong?" I ask all five of them, worried. "No, big brother is just jealous that we're spending time with you instead of him" Romeo states. Oh... I didn't mean to make him jealous "shouldn't you be with him then? You are siblings.." I point out nervously.

"But we want to be wit chuu!" Reyold whines. "I- um.." I sigh before I finish "I know I can't force you so I won't even try" I say, surrendering before even doing anything.

"Reyold! Romeo! Robin!" The queen calls for them again. Is it just me or did she call them louder than before? Probably just me. (She did) I get down so they can get off, which they do reluctantly. "Tee chu water miter!" Reyold called out to me as he walked away, waving. I waved back, almost not understanding him. I looked where the scientist and father figure are to find that they aren't, probably going to Roman which is whatever, I don't mind.

I walk over to a window and look out the night sky, stars, and the beautiful moon.. Why does this feel so calming?... I sigh then put my hood up. I feel a small, weak smile on my face. I remember why it's so calming now....

Mother.

Ball room music starts to play as people find partners to dance with. Uh, oh. I feel my anxiety slowly rise as I look around. I spot a double pair of doors that lead to a balcony. Perfect! An escape!

I speed walk over to the doors and open them a crack to where I can slip out, I quickly and quietly close them. I turn around and lean my back on the doors, sighing "thank god no one asked me to dance.." I say aloud to myself. I still feel my anxiety quite a bit yet it went down a smidge...

I push myself to my feet and walk over to end of the balcony. I fold my arms as I lean on the railing. 'I.. I think I know something to calm myself down' I let out a breath of air and think as I start to hum the melody.

(You can put it on now ewe)

"Some days, things just take~ way to much of my energy. I look up and the whole room spin-"

"Ning. You take~ my cares away~"

"I get so over complicate, people tell me to medicate~"

I push to up right and spin towards the door.

"I feel my blood runnin~"

I look up at the night sky as I sing "I swear, the sky's fallin~"

I hug myself. "How do I know if this shit's fabricated?~"

I clap and continue spinning as I sing "time goes by and I~ can't control my mind~"

"Don't know what else to try and you tell me everytime~"

I stop spinning before I get diseay. I grab the fabric of my shirt in front of my chest "just.. Keep breathin and breathin and breathin and breathinnn!~"

"And oh~ I gotta keep... Keep on breathing!~"

"Just.. Keep breathin and breathin and breathin and breathin~ and oh~ I gotta keep... Keep on breathing!~" I sing with a smile.

"Sometimes~ it's hard to find~ Find my way up into the clouds" I look up and reach my hand for the sky.

"Toon it out, they can be so loud" I cover my ears and hunch over a bit.

I kneel down and sit on my knees "you remind~ me off a time~ when things weren't so complicated"

I lay down on my stomach then turn to my back "all I need is to see your face" I look up at the moon as I sing. I start to tear up with happy tears when I thought of my mother again.

"Feel my blood runnin~"

"Swear the sky's fallin~"

"How do I know if this shit's fabricated? ~.." I sing a bit sadly.

"O-oh~ time goes by~ and I~ can't control my mind~"

"Don't know what else to try~and you tell me everytime~..."

"Just keep breathin and breathin and breathin and breathin~"

"And oh~ I gotta keep... Keep on breathin!~ just keep.. Breathin and breathin and breathin and breathin~ and oh~ I gotta keep... Keep on breathin! ~"

"my, my air... My, my air.. My, my air. My air~"

"My, my air.. My, my air. My, my air! ~ yeah-ah-ah! ~"

I stand up as I sing "just keep.. breathin and breathin and breathin and breathin!~ and oh~ I gotta keep.. Keep on breathin!~"

"Keep on breathin and breathin and breathin and breathin~ and oh~ I gotta keep... Keep on breathin! ~ yeah- ah- ah- a~"

I got louder but not loud enough to hear from inside.

"Feel my blood runnin!~"

"Swear the sky's falling! ~"

"Keep on breathing!~ oh."

"Time goes by and I, can't control my mind!~" I sing as I grip my hair, messing it up a little.

"Keep on breathin~ oooo~" I sing the last bit calmly. I then clap three times in separate lengths.

I sigh and walk over to where I was before. My anxiety has fully calmed down now "thank god..." I mumbled out. I lean on the railing again and look up at the sky. I whip my tear away then let out a breath I didn't know I was keeping.

Normally people would find the silence unbearable, but I find it calming. I'm the only one I know that likes it, and I'm fine with that.

The wind howls as it blows my purple hair around. I shiver and rub my arms as I get colder, I pull my hood up and wrap myself in my beautiful velvet cloak. "This isn't the best idea but it's better than dancing with a stranger..." I mumbles.

"I wouldn't dissssagree, my dear~" I hear the same voice that belong to the cloak person. I zip around and see the person from before. I grip the railing as he walked closer. "Sorry, didn't hear or see you come out..." I say, looking for a way out. He waves up and down "you're fine dear~ I sssslip by mossst anyway."

I clung to the railing as he walked forward. 'Me no liiiike' I think, being anxious and weird as always. "Don't worry my dear~" He purred again, coming closer to where he's right in front of me. "I- um- n-no touch p-p-please..." I stutter over my words.

He grinned "I won't touch you.. For now~" He said. 'Wait, wha?' I thought and cocked an eyebrow, but be before I would even blink, everything went black and I fell...

Done! You guys happy? Probably not but eh.

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