"When you are in Love you can’t fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams.”
..I entered the classroom , looked at all the faces sitting there , didn't recognize anyone ! i didn't feel comfortable at first , i couldn't stop rolling my eyes all over the classroom hoping to find someone i know , NO ONE !
Suddenly a guy came in , my heart started beating so fast ,' who is he ? where do i know him from ? '- i asked myself .. Oh my god he's the guy i had a crush on last year ! It was obvious that my face has changed when i saw him , i blushed , i was anxious.. but thank god he didn't notice anything !
On the outside i was just sitting normal like everyone else , nothing unusual . But on the inside , i was like - HELLO ! Can't you see that i'm here ? -
He turned up, pointed to the seat next to me and asked : Can i sit here ?
...(My heart skipped a beat )
I -totally surprised- answered with YES !
He sat next to me , we talked , he was such a nice person , he has the most attractive smile , the most beautiful eyes , AND he's the smartest guy in our class .. For me , he was kind of the PERFECT GUY !
I was very shy , and didn't talk too much ..
Days passed .. we sat next to each other in every class .. We became friends , best friends ..
I won't lie , i had feelings for him ! i wanted to be something more than friends with him ..I'm not sure if it was reciprocal , i really don't know !
In English class , we had a presentation to do .. he decided to do it with me and of course i didn't mind at all !
One day , he invited me to his house , we played video games , watched a movie , laughed ..And i have to admit that it was probably the best day of my life !
But now , i'm not sure if i have to say that it was the best day or the worst one ! Because the most traumtizing event happened right after that when he told me that he has a Girlfriend !
I was really upset , sad , falling apart .. but i didn't show anything , i haven't told anyone ! i SMILED and pretended that everything is fine .
Nothing has changed between me and him , we're still friends ,even though it's hard for me to pretend that i never had feelings for him .. Everyday i wake up and i try to convince myself that it's okay , one day i will find someone who loves me and i will love him back !
But until that day arrives , i will try to find myself again ! i don't know what should i do anymore ..
