My Crazy Ex [박지민] under editing

chapter 26 going back

• athazagoraphobia =
the fear of forgetting, being forgotten or ignored, or replaced.

"Go hide, I'll deal with him" he beamed standing up. I got up in a panic and started looking around, trying to find a place that I could hide. I don't want to go back to him. Not now. Not when I'm so close to getting out.

"There! Hide in the bathroom over there" he pointed to a room with a bright light, the bathroom. I silently thanked him and quickly ran over to the bathroom.

He came back and I am going to be in so much trouble. I don't want this all to continue. I just want to go home.

I heard the front door open and footsteps entering the living room. It was silent for the first few minutes and no one spoke at all.

I could feel the tension in the air even though I wasn't directly sitting there with them. I could see them through the key hole. 

It seamed like yugyeom wanted to punch a hole through his face.

I looked through it and saw them sitting opposite from eachother on the sofa. They both had frowns on their faces. I saw that jimin didn't look the happiest either. He looked as if he had been crying, that hurt me. He was the first who spoke.

"Where is she?"

The room was silent before I heard a loud sigh. It was yugyeom and he had a scowled expression on his face. I could tell he didn't want to speak to him at all.

"She's here and safe, that's all you need to know" he snarled at the older and sat back on the sofa. He held a face of anger towards jimin who sat opposite from him.

"I'm guessing she told you about our little situation" he sighed. He knows I told him. I'm definitely going to be dead.

"Yeah I'm not going to even start to talk about how much I want to kill you already, let alone adding the fact that you kidnapped your ex" yugyeom hissed.

I could see jimin force a smile, barely.

"You haven't changed much" an all too familiar voice remarked, a small grin plastered across his face.

I furrowed my eyebrows and looked at yugyeom. The corner of his lip raised slightly in a frown.

"No shit Sherlock. What did you expect me to be all lovey dovey?" He growled at him and scoffed.

"Seriously yugy? The smallest bit of respect wouldn't kill you" he shrugged,  his face forming a grin. Yugyeom didn't look amused at his comment.

"Respect? 6 years"

"You left without saying anything and left me with that man" he snapped at him. The atmosphere had turned cold and suffocating. I could see how jimin was slouched with his head down. What happened?

"Do you know how hard it was to cope when he died!? I was all alone. And you never came back!" his voice sharply rung through the air. The look on his face was hurt and showed long lasting pain. Could this be about his father?

"I-i'm sorry things just didn't work out and I had lost my girlfriend-" jimin struggled to speak. It hurt my heart to see him so distraught and hurt. He is probably talking about Lisa. Now that I think about it, it must have been hard to deal with.

"I just wanted you to come back. At least tell me you were alright!" The younger continued dispite the distress shared between the two. He seemed really upset about it.

"I know I'm an ass- but please forgive me" jimin begged. I felt a small pain in my heart.

"I will forgive you but please, don't leave me alone again" the younger trembled with his words spilling out of his mouth as if been held back for years. I felt a sadness wash over me.

"I have had to live in this house alone for years! And I hate it" he choked out trying to hold in the urge to cry.

"I promise I won't leave you again" he promised.

I saw jimin smiling so brightly that it almost made me feel the way I used to. Happy. Complete. Like the rest of your life will be happy and nothing could go wrong. But I realised that it can't be like that.

"You know this was also the reason why I trusted her with you. I wanted to try clear things up and see you again" jimin chuckled. It made me feel better to know that in a way, my presence helped them. I was happy to know that they are on better terms.

"Thank you hyung"

It was quiet for a while before I decided to do something. I know I'm probably just walking to my death, but I feel like It will be alright. It's just a really strange feeling.

I place my hand on the door handle and unlocked the door of the confined room in sat in. I slowly opened the door and stepped out of the bathroom. I saw two heads turn towards me.

"Jagi!?" He cried staring at me with wide eyes. I smiled slightly seeing his face light up. He stood up and walked up to me. He gave me a hug and I was frozen and couldn't move due to him hugging my so tightly. I was happy to see him again.

"I missed you" he smiled brightly and held my hands. I was slightly shocked and confused that he was so gental and not angry at me. Even when I looked back at yugyeom, he looked shocked and wore the same look of confusion.

"Come on lets go back home" he grinned pulling me along with him. A small feeling of fear set me off again.

What if he is going to get angry at me again? I don't want to go back home. I wasn't walking and he stopped to see why I wasn't walking with him.

His smiley face had turned to a frown and I didn't know what to do. Yugyeom just sat there not knowing what to do or weather to intervene.

"What's wrong jagi?" He frowned looking at my expression to figure out what I was going to say. I got my arm out of his and stood straight.

"I don't want to go back" I muttered lowly looking on the ground. I don't want to go back to the way things used to be. I don't want to this to get any worse between us.

He looked down for a second before stepping towards me, slightly shielding our view from yugyeom sight.

I was startled by his actions and thought he was going to be angry. What If he hasn't forgiven me yet?

"I promise I won't hurt you anymore" he said almost whispering. I was taken aback by what he said and just stood still. He moved away and smiled holding, my hand again.

Strangely enough this time I didn't do anything against it and just followed him back.

Yugyeom just sat there and watched me walking along with him. He tried to get up and stop him but I just shook my head saying that it was alright.

I just hope I won't regret giving him a second chance.