Shay's POV
To say I'm avoiding both Yesung and Hyukjae like the plague is a major understatement. I've went from changing schedules to not showing up at my home for days. I get letters, roses, text messages, emails, phone calls, and voicemails from both of them. I've chosen not to open/listen/read any of it. That was until this morning. There's two months left until Jessica gives birth to Violet. I've already got the baby room done, and I've stocked up on all the supplies I will possibly need. Heechul has been my major supporter, and my rock as I've gotten though the last month. Instead of trying to figure out how I'm feeling, and who I want to help me raised this child I'm just focusing on the baby. I'm currently in my hotel room writing lyrics, when 2 letters are slid under my door. One was from Yesung, and the other from Hyukjae. After a month of dodging the both of them I decided to read them. I decided to open Hyukjae's first, seeing as I'm not in a relationship with him, so I'm eager to see why he wants to get ahold of me so bad.
Dear Shay,
I know I've hurt you, and lied to you countless times. I did it all, because I thought you would better off without me. But after having a long talk with Heechul, I see how wrong I was. I was running away, because I was afraid to love you. You were the only person who made me feel wanted, handsome, cared for, and loved. You made me feel things I didn't even know where possible. I never really understood what love was, but that's because I didn't open my eyes to see what was in front of me. All along it was you, Shay. You were the one who inspired me to move forward. You always cheered me on, and was the one who made me continue on. Without you I wouldn't have my career. I'm so sorry that I didn't realize what I had sooner. Shay, I'm foolishly in love with you. I know that I've fucked up, and I don't deserve a second chance. Instead, I'll prove how much I care about you. I'm done sitting back, and letting everyone else have a chance. I'm fighting for you, Shay. I'm no longer giving up on us. Just know I'm not going away, unless you send me away. I'm going to fight for you, until you show me I have no chance.
Forever Yours, Hyukjae
I then took a deep breath as a tear slipped down my cheek. After everything I've been through the past 7 years, and now he's going to fight for me? I honestly don't know how to feel about it. I then bit my lip as I opened Yesung's letter.
Dear Jagiya,
I'm sorry you're confused. I know the pressure that's placed upon your shoulders. Not only are you preparing to be a mother, but you also have to figure out who you want to help you raise that child. I'm not going to pressure you. You know that if you want me, then I'll be waiting for you. If you decide to choose Hyukjae, then I'll understand. I just want you to be happy, Angel. That's all I've ever wanted. Whether you were mine or not. I love you, but I'm not going to make you stay with me. Especially if your heart belongs to another. Just take your time, and follow your heart. Even if your heart doesn't pull you towards me. It's ok, because I'll find love again. I hate that you have so many big choice at the age of 19, but you aren't just anyone are you? Of course not. You're the most selfless, caring, loving, strong, and just the most amazing person I've ever met. Don't ever settle, because you are afraid to hurt someone. Go with what feels right.
Always Here, Jonghoon
I then placed my head in my hands as I cried. I love them both, but for different reasons. How am I ever going to choose?
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