If we are going to be honest here I shall share my ridiculous failed attempt at thinking I found someone. Even speaking her name gets me to freeze up. Al***** R*****, this bih didn't even like me as a human being and she played the hell out of me for about 2 months. We would have conversations for hours, we'd talk about "ruling over this area", we chilled pretty much like all the time. So one day my boy Dave tells me something isn't right about her but idgaf because "I fell In Love with her." Turns out Dave asked his GF about her and at the time his GF and Al**** were best friends but she didn't condone what she was doing to me so she told David the truth. David called me up and said straight up "Yo man this is about to kind of hurt but Al***** bro? She deadass is using the fuck out of you." Idek how so I asked him to explain. "She knows your connections to the plugs nowadays and since she basically slept with everyone but you, she just decided to get you to get everything for her cause she knew you would. Felicia told me that she didn't even want to add you on snap but she did so you can recommend plugs to her and find her shit." So thinking how Ridiculous that is, I texted her trying to find the truth. Bitch had the audacity of just sending me a "🤷🏾♂️" emoji and then leaving me on read. She actually snapped at Felicia for telling ME the truth. So I sent her a message about how I thought we grew close to each other since I've had your back at TC for YEARS but it all went down the drain because I told you I liked you even AFTER you slept with half of my legit friends? Was I that terrible to look at that you had to use me? She didn't even respond. So I legit shed a couple tears because I didn't realize how vindictive females can be. I sat in my room for a complete 4 days before I went outside. I ended up taking that pain and used it to start running from my emotions and I just felt like shit for so long.
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