journal of reality

me talking to myself about I

"You-you're back! I thought I had lost you! I hadn't seen you in so long, I thought I had lost you forever. I kept looking for you, but whenever I got close I would get pulled away by her. She became a part of me these past few months. I was losing more of myself and letting her take control. I would let her bring me down and keep me from doing anything. But not anymore. I let myself be naive and open once more. I let myself fly whichever way the wind blew, and it blew me straight to you. Just a spark lit the candle that brought you and me out of the darkness. I feel alive again because I know I still have you. And I have to remember I can never lose you. Because if we ever drift apart again, I will surely give in to her again. Now that I have you back, we can do anything together. I still need you to keep me in focus and not forget where my path is leading. Keep me in line and I'll make sure to color out of them. You will always make me happy, even if I can only hold you for a brief amount of time before we are separated by the invisible wall again. Help me remember that I am still me, and that you are still me. We will never be separate, no matter how far away you may seem. I will follow you knowing that you will guide me to the most important thing in life: happiness."