Dear Eddie spaghetti~ Reddie

Chapter 12

@Simqly_Alex

THE NEXT DAY 

Malorie, took Delilah out for the day So I could be alone. 

I stared at my ceiling drowning in my own tears. I had Eddies book in one hand his sweater on and his inhaler clutched in the other. I couldn't move. Nothing mattered. Not Malorie. Not my mom. Nothing. 

Why would he leave? Delilah needs him. I needed him. I still need him. I love him but, hes gone for good. 

I whined and more tears came out. 

I felt like a storm, rain wouldn't stop pouring and every once and a while I made a loud whine. 

I heard a knock on the door.  Every second the knock got louder. Five minutes later the knock was still there. I got up not letting go of the book or inhaler. I walked to the front door and opened it. I saw Stan, Bill, Beverly, Ben and Mike. The five of them had tears under there eyes. They pulled me in for a hug. 

I cried in there arms. 

"It's okay, shh." Beverly reassured me.

"No its not." I answered. 

We cried the rest of the day talking about Eddie.

"I remember when he met me at the park he helped me threw suicide. He promised me we would go threw life together. He lied. He lied. He left. He left." Stan cried. 

"I remember when he was the only thing that made me smile. I remember when I used to cry every night because I missed him. I remember when I wanted to be loved by him. I remember when I used to tell myself I wasn't gay because I wanted to be accepted. I remember when I wanted to be with him, only him. I remember wanting to hug him, be loved by him. I remember him." I cried. 

3 HOURS LATER 

I knocked on Eddies girlfriends Alex's door. A lady with glasses and bags under her eyes answered. 

"Hi. Is Alex here?" I asked. 

"No, no she left last night. Police are trying to find her." The women sobbed. 

"okay." I smiled fakely. " Hope you find her." 

I ran to Bill's house since it was the closest. I knocked on the door as hard as I could. He answered almost instantly. 

"W-what?" He asked. 

"Eddies not dead." I cheered. 

"Rich-" 

"No, no listen, Alex ran away last night, they probably ran away together plus they said the body didn't look like Eddies and a boy names Will went missing last night." 

"Richie he's gone." 

"No, hes not." 

"Richie." 

Bill pulled me in for a hug. 

"I know." I sobbed. 

"It's okay."

"No its not." 

"I'm sorry, I know you loved him." 

"Still do." 

I cried every night for the next four months. I would only talk to the losers and Delilah. I wouldn't talk to Malorie or my mom or Addy.  

I shoved seven pills down my throat. two more. two more. I reached for two more the bottle was empty. 

My head became light and I heard sirens, I closed my eyes.

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