Intro
This is a story
One already told,
About a husk of a man turned,
To a woman with a heart of gold
Verse 1
But her struggles stay with her still
Like when she wanted to throw herself from the window sill
She tries to fight to them to find her light,
But even with her trying
Her minds still black as night.
Everytime she looks in a mirror it's a reminder
Of every single little thing
She's left behind her,
She wishes she could break the glass
Rearrange the shapes into one that fits her, maybe that would make the healing fast,
But alas it was just a fantasy
Just like being loved by her whole family
So instead the river flows,
Of tears, anger, despair, and woes
She pretends hiding behind her mask.
It was the only way she knew how to make relationships last,
She loves them but it's hard sometimes
When just going through the day was like walking through a land of mines,
Which would attack her mind,
And make her rewind, back to a person she didn't want to be
Make her see the pictures she didn't want to see,
Causing the river to flow into the sea,
A sea of troubles of which she can't escape from
One that made her lost and made feel done.
Done with life, done with trying.
What's the point when all she was good at was crying,
Though sometimes she didn't even have salt for tears,
So her racking sobs were dry for none to hear.
For that mask she wore was for everybody.
Though it suffocated her, made her a lifeless body,
A hollow shell even through the good days,
But still on this earth she stays,
Cause she's too scared about what comes next,
To take that rope and put it round her neck,
kick down the chair and let her hang.
Put that gun up to her head and just let BANG
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Chorus 2
The real reason why the stories so sad to see,
Cause this story,
This story is about me.
Verse 2
See my mind is in a constant battle,
So I grab my sword and sheild
Meet steel with steel
Just so I can feel
I will never kneel
For all those looking down,
Making me out to be their clown,
I'll play the part for now
I just don't understand how
to escape from this
All these painful hits
Just wish one word would miss
So I had a window
To strike venomous
Like a black widow
these words are see through to me
So it's hard to understand truthfully
And it beats and batters me brutally
But Im making it easier for you to see,
cause all's these painting and writing make it clear
Why I don't wanna be here
It's indiscriminate fear
Of every sound that comes to my ear
