I do not believe in a life after death. I believe we already have such a great and most times long life. So why get even another one. But now I really hope there is because then that means that you can watch over me dad. That you are helping me in every situation of my life because I surely will still have a lot to come. I am only seventeen so you will have to help me make my decisions in the future. I believe that you can read that right now so it is addressed to you. I miss you so much. You have not been gone for long but I already miss you. If somebody would tell me a way to get you back what ever it took. And I hate thinking about the times I hated you because I did. But now I just can not stop thinking about the times we could have had. The live we could have had together. You will never be able to be a good father. You will never be able to be a grandfather. You will never have grandchildren and be able to care for them as good as you sometimes cared for me. You would have been an amazing grandfather. And children need good grandparents. They need them to defend them from their parents, to teach them lessons and the old way of life. You will never be able to do that.
But then again you will also never be able to scream at them. Which, let's be real here, you would have. You would have screamed at them for the smallest mistake they made. So I guess they will not miss that. And neither will I. I am sorry to say that but it is just the truth. The truth that you were not always a good father. That me and my mom cried so much because of you. But still.
I miss you.
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poetry and basic thoughts
PoesíaThis is kind of my personal diary now (not really but whatever). I want to write my thoughts down and maybe do some poetry we will see. I do not really know what I am going to use this for or if I am going to update often. It is just for me having s...
