I am alive but I feel as if I wasn't. I feel numb and very sensitive at the same time. I don't see the point of living anymore. I put a mask on everyday showing people I am happy or at least not extremely depressed, not like anybody would care. I want to be able to wake up and just be happy. I want to have a positive perspective in life but all I could think about is, "What's the point of this?" I want to help my family, be successful in life to support them but all I do is sleep, I can't even get up in the morning, even that is too much for me. My family don't say anything, they say I can do it, that I am smart, nice, positive, a good leader. They tell me that I should be myself without being embarrassed about what people think. I have very low self esteem and I feel that I'm not pretty and that I will never be able to achieve anything in life. I'm just so tired of life.
