''The Heart Wants Whats It Wants''

Him

There he was standing there not knowing that I ever exsisted but some how I caught his attention.

Me knowing that nothing could happen between us makes me feel ugly, worthless, stupid.

He got my heart tied in a knot that can't get untied no matter what I do. I dont know where these feelings are coming from.

I've been in school with him for almost five years and I never acknowledged him until now.

''Snap out of it'' I always say to myself, but he's all that I think about.

There he was. Dana Vaughns. With a snapback laying upon his head. I was staring. Stop! Snap out of it, he's just a boy. But a very handsome boy.

I'm recently in science and were doing a lab experiment on cells. I ended up being paired with Dana. My luck.

''what's your name?'' he said.

" Hi, my names Shontelle. I've been in most of your classes for as long as I can remember. Thanks for acknowledging me" I said in my head.

But instead I just said "Shontelle"

"Do you know what were supposed to do" I said looking down.

''No need to be shy around me''. He said shooting me his charming smile. It wasn't that charming because on the inside I still felt ugly, stupid so no matter what he said and did it will always be the same.

''Lets get this over with so we can move on to our own separate lives'' I said starting the lab report.

''What's the rush baby'' he said as I laughed. He looked at me with a confused expression on his face.

"Are you done" I said while watching him finish his lab report.

"mhmm" was all I heard until we both stood up and went to one of the microscopes.

I left to get the onion that were suppose to examine. I came back to see Dana on his phone looking at snapchat.

I rolled my eyes and started getting the slide set up.

"Shontelle" he said as he snapped a photo of my face.

I then tried to take the phone out of his hand and ended up chasing him around the room.

We were laughing until we got in trouble by Mrs.Lockhart. She then wrote us a note to the principals office.

Once we walked outside of the classroom we both laughed until we couldn't breathe. We both walked to the principals office shoulder to shoulder.

Dana tried to open the door noticing that it was locked.

"Dana" I said pointing at the sign on the door stating that she went out for lunch. I then started laughing while he gave me a serious look.

We then headed back to class noticing that we only had 10 minutes of class left.

I then put everything in backpack and put one strap around my shoulder.

I went into realization, remembering that what we have is only temporarily.

Why do I act so foolish this cant be a thing what do I me im not his type but him with that snapback on and those eyes are just sinking my soul