Wrapped

Kabanata 2

Kabanata 2 : Memories

Dahil sa sinabi niya bigla ko siyang naitulak ng malakas na dahilan ng pagkahulog niya sa maliit na kama kung saan kami gumagawa ng kalokohan. I cursed under my breath.

"Don't act like you know what I've been through! You don't know what the shit is happening to me, so don't say anything about her." My voice echoes inside the small room.

"I'm . . . I'm sorry," she muttered, holding my hand.

I harshly took her hand away. I stood up, fixing my belt and get my leather jacket on the floor.

"This is wrong," I finally said before leaving.

Shit. Why did I do that? Maybe I'm just fucked up.

Naririnig ko parin ang pagtawag niya sa'kin pero hindi ko na siya pinansin. Bumalik ako sa living room kung saan si Vin at ang kaniyang girlfriend ay nakaupo. Marami paring tao sa loob. Ang iba nagsasayawan pero ang iba nakaupo nalang sa mga couches at nag-iinuman.

I went to them and sat on the couch where Vin and his girlfriend is situated. Taking a canned beer, I opened it and began to drink it all.

Nainis ako dahil wala akong ibang nagawa kundi ang i-suot ang aking orange na leather jacket dahil sira na ang sleeveless ko.

"Fuck pare, what the hell just happened? Parang ang dali niyo atang natapos." Vin chuckled that would make me clench my jaw.

Inirapan ko ito at kumuha ulit ng canned beer.

"Shut up, pare. What I'm about to do is bullshit. Mabuti naman at natauhan ako agad. I'm no fucker, Dude. And tell you what, I hate girls whose very urge to fuck. I'm not ready to become a father." I scoffed and drink my beer again.

Humalakhak naman si Vin sa sinabi ko.

Screw her. That girl is annoying. She only wants pleasure. She is nothing compared to Rogue. Rogue is a smart girl. Simple, yet beautiful. Rogue never seeks pleasure in me. She always talks about her studies, her family, and some other school stuffs. Siya lang ang babaeng hindi ko kayang pagsawaan kahit kelan sa buong buhay ko. 'Yung kahit ako ay pinagsawaan niya na.

Damn. Bakit ko ba siya naiisip? I have to take her memories away inside my head.

Why memories are so hard to forget? Is there any memory that someone forgot? Maybe, the answer is none. Sa palagay ko wala 'pang tao ang nakalimot sa mga nakaraan nila. Alam kong paminsan minsan naiisip din nila ang lahat ng pinagdaanan nila sa buhay. Whether it's worth it or not.

No man could ever live without a memory . . . and memories. Unless if amnesia shit your head or when you're already dead.

Something stung my eyes.

"Pare," tawag ni Vin "Are you crying?"

Naramdaman ko nalang ang butil na pumapatak sa aking pisngi. Shit. I'm fucking crying.

"That tears reminds me of someone, eh?" dagdag niya.

"Don't say anything stupid, jackass. Baka mawala lahat ng ngipin mo 'pag dinugtungan mo 'yan." I mumbled.

Agad namang tumahimik si Vin at tumango. Showing that he gives up the conversation.

Takot sa'kin si Vin. He don't like to fight me because he knows what I'm capable of. I can kill him by any chance if he dares me to. Basta ako ang nagagalit wala siyang nagagawa. Isa pa ayaw niyang mawala ang pagkakaibigan namin. He can't finish college without me. He needs my help. Wala naman siyang ibang malalapitan kung sakaling may problema siya kundi ako lang, lalong-lalo na sa projects at assignments niya.