(On the pic : Eddie)
Hurstville, Tuesday 18th of February :
Dear Héloïse,
I know I already sent you an e-mail yesterday, where I explained you my first day at school and the few encounters I made there, but yesterday, once again, a lot of things happened. I should have anticipated et write everything in the same e-mail, but anyway, it's too late. Let me explain it all in detail to you.
Emily and me were heading towards the refectory after finishing our morning classes. This one was explaining me how eager she was to introduce me to her friend group while we were walking in the sunny paths of my high school (it's spring here). Calum suddenly came to us running. You know, I mentioned him in my last letter ? One of the cute boys ? The one that lives in a house nearby mine, and that calmed one of my anxiety crisis. He wanted to offer us to eat with him. I was facing a dilemma, Emily promised her friends to intriduce us, but at the same time he had been adorable since monday and I always ended up running away against my will. And once again, I didn't even had the time to think about my answer that my friend had already decided to ease me the task by nicely refusing. The young man, then, went back to his friend and we started to walk again. Although, I couldn't untie my spirit from him. I was trying to capture his attention, to find a way to make him know that I was sorry, but I was incapable of catching his gaze. It stayed fixed on his friends, making me feel a bit more invisible each time he turned his pupils in a direction that wasn't mine.
Once arrived at the canteen, we grabbed our trays before going to look for Emily's friends. Without warning, she starts to run toward a table where two other girls were sat. The blondie joined them and I stood there for a few more seconds to watch them. It's funny how, separatelt, I'd have never imagined them together, but gathered they were like the most radiant puzzle. One was tan-skinned, her dark blond hair was falling in little curls on her shoulders and her lips painted in a plum colour were moving at the rate of her talk. They were round and full, like a child mouth, which brought a soft side to her appealing young woman face. I liked the other instantly. She was a rocker with long dark hair, an original that enlivened har uniformed with fishnet stockings. She was wearing a black hat and a huge smile she was giving me. I finally joined them.
So I spent the lunch break with Emily, Eddie and Shay, getting to know each other. Eddie, the tan-skinned one is a huge fan of make up and, much to my surprise, of France. I, at first, thought she was haughty, but it probably was just shyness because she happens to be adorable. I wasn't wrong about Shay, she's a true blue rocker, but also likes all kind of music, she's a passionate, one thing we already have in common. It doesn't keep her from loving to watch cartoons while stuffing herself with chicken nuggets. She's adorable too and very welcoming just like Emily. They all three are smart girls and look like they have a beautiful connection to each other. Though, I didn,'t felt left aside. I, lucky for me, have a lot in common with them. When i realised it I felt so good. So this is it, will I finally have the right to a new start ? My so eagerly awaited brand new life ?
After this enjoyable lunch, we separated to go practise our options of the afternoon. Emily and Shay found their way to the swimming pool, whereas Eddie returned to her drama class and I walked to the art room. Suddenly, I caught sight of Calum and my guilt grabbed me by the ankle to make me fall from my little cloud. I darted toward him at a quick pace and put my hand on his shoulder. I was scared I hurt him earlier. What if he thinks I played with him ? He turned around and, when he noticed me, his smile widened. I was expecting him to frown or to retreat. But he didn't. I'm gonna try to transcribe you the conversation a well as I can because, in all honesty, I don't see any way to sum it up.
« - Hey, what's up frenchie ? Did it went well with the girls ?
- Very well, thank you, but I'm really sorry. It was complicated for me to have to choose you see...
- No, no problem really ! It's a good thing that you make friends too!
- But you are my friend, Calum.
- Yes of course ! Well, yeah, that's not what I meant, but... I mean others, girls, two guys isn't a lot.
- You know, I always thought that when it comes to friends, the quality is more important than the quantity. As a result, we could maybe try to eat together if you want ? Tomorrow, for example... ?
- Yes, it would be a pleasure !
A little silence followed. Not an uncomfortable silence, no, we just stared each other smiling. Seeing the smile he was shooting me was warming me and making me smile always wider. We eventually had to leave to go attend our classes. I've been cheerful during all the art class. I was drawing, tracing, making my pens danse on my canvas in a light-hearted way ? And in each object, face, scenery, line after line, I'd always end up finding back his features.
You know, Héloïse, I'm quite confused about what to think. About him, and everything. He makes me feel good, he reassures me, but still, what he makes me feel scares me.
Love always, I miss you and will talk to you soon. Keep a close eye on your mailbox !
Clara, your confused cousin.
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Here is chapter 5! I decided to make this one differently and to write it as an e-mail. I think it's an interseting point of view because it allows a different type of writing and a clearer view on the character's feelings. That's something I'll maybe do from times to times, provided you like it? So tell me what you think about it.
I hope you'll take the time to vote or give me your opinion. I love you, see you guys! :) ♥
