DEAD ROSES. CHANGLIX

deux.

i was too sick to go to practice the next day, so the boys and management let me stay at the dorms.

it was alright. a little lonely, though.

it felt a little empty.

without him.
or the others, of course.
but i could only think of him.
of him not being there.
the fact that he wasn't by my side.

i didn't realize he was the only thing on my mind that day.
silly, i know.

funny, isn't it?

but i felt weird, because i knew i was fine, but everytime i remembered how empty the dorm was, everything hurt again.

not because the others weren't there.

because he wasn't.

but i, of course, didn't realize this at the time.
ridiculous, i know.

funny, isn't it?

he was just so stuck in my mind, i didn't notice all the new things that were happening to me.

i didn't realize how hot it would get when i would think of him.
how scratchy my throat got everytime i thought of him coming back.

i would think about hugging him, asking about practice, and listening to his responses. he'd talk about his day, the day he spent without me. that's when i'd stop myself from thinking further.
stupid, i know.

funny, isn't it?

how i didn't notice how sad i got when thinking about changbin without me.

i only started opening my eyes when i coughed up something new.

a beautiful, bright red rose petal.
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genie's wish.
love hurts

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