This is what love feels like

chapter 1

                                                                                             KAYLA'S POV

sometimes i wonder if people actually care about me i mean i try every day to be "happy" i dress  pretty everyday i fallow the trends... i think...  i don't know may- oh fuck damn uhm

"uhm hey Kol. h-h-how are you?"

"oh hey... um whats your name again?"

"kayla."

"oh that's a pretty name .. i'm fine i guess, i don't know."

"why everything alright?" god he's adorable.

"oh uhm look i would tell you but i don't know you i can't just tell what's going on."

"oh um ok i'm sorry" my eyes start tearing up

"oh no don't cry. i'm sorry" 

"aight imma head i don't want your friends to see us talking." i turn around i start walking away.

"no. uhm ok see you later Kayla... im sorry for hurting you."

just keep walking Kayla Jones. i can't believe you are tearing up over him not trusting you, he barely knows you. quit crying stop tearing up. GOD WHY DO I HAVE TO BE SENSITIVE?!! 

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"Hey mom. h-how was your day?"

"I'm surprised you are talking.. what got you to speak up? a boy?"

"No i just wanted to talk... so um you remember Kol right?"

"the e-boy or soft-boy or whatever he is.. um Kandices son."

"um yeah i talked to him and i cried in front of him." :/

"haha."

well there goes my confidence well enjoy it while lasts. i just want to be smiling and laughing.  but it's whateva i decided to text Chase

Kayla:): hey. u around?

ChAsE:): :um no i'm with Kol.. 

Kayla:): oh okay nvm then..

ChAsE:): : no, no i can make time for bud.. whats up??

Kayla:): i tried talking to him and i fucking cried in front of him.. i feel like a dumb ass, i'm pretty sure he thins i'm mental or something... i was hey Kol how are you? and was like oh hey whats you name? Kayla. that's a pretty name. oh i'm fine, i guess... i don't know.. i was like whats wrong. then he was like oh i don't wanna tell it's just i don't know you. and was like oh, okay by and i was already tearing up..   i'm actually really retarded ugh kms.

ChAsE:):: i'm sorry.. so don't get mad at me... but i read the text out loud in front of him.

kayla:): NO! you didn't CHASE!! i didn't want him to know god.. why would you do that. Chase that's not okay.

ChAsE:):: I KNOW i'm sorry but guess what. it made him blush a little and he says he's sorry about earlier he didn't mean to make you cry and that wasn't you. and that he would like to meet you and get to know you i guess. i wouldn't trust that.