A Girl In A Nutshell

Questionable Faith

I keep asking for signs & they're given to me..
But, I disregard them because that's not what I want them to be..
You say "be still", But I become disobedient..
Then, I'll say "work w. me Lord" and want you to be lenient..
I'm sorry if I'm your most troubled child,
You put all this on the world for us and expect us not to run wild?
Ohh, you were teaching us temptation..
And when it all falls down to have patience,
What about the life that we're facing?
Was it purposed for us to be in that situation?
I'll admit,
I'm surrounded by lust,
But I guess that's why we're supposed to be abstinent until we find one we trust..
And I'll admit I get envious, how come I can't live like that? & I have to watch what I say because my tongue can be venomous..
& yes Lord I get prideful, I'll praise materialistic things before opening the Bible ..
Yes, I can admit that I have gluttony,
Then I sit back and wonder why I'm living so uncomfortably..
So I become greedy, & want more food.. I mean wealth, when I'm out in the world I put you on the shelf ..
I forget to pray, but expect you to always be my help..
Yes Lord, I get selfish with my ways,
I sin & expect it to be okay ..
Lord I know I'm not supposed to question your work,
But why did you take the good ones from me knowing it'll hurt?
So, can I start over?
starting from today, I'm handing my life over tho it was never mine anyways..
and Lord I repent, despite all of my sins,
For you are my savior I just hope i'm forgiven ..