Gone

one.

(just a heads up, thisis sorta like a flashback where violet overdoses..;(   )

I held the bottles of pills in my hand.My fingers trembled as I sturggled to screw open the lid. Don't do this. A voice in my head called out. Distant memories started flooding through my mind as I clenched my teeth and shut my eyes tight.  Here's to the pain, the tears, and regret. This is it. My hands shook as I jammed several of the pills into my mouth, and I swallowed. My face was wet with tears and my lips trembled at the thought of permanently leaing, but a surge of adrenenline flooded through my bloodstream, making me forget about the stinging pain on my blood stained wrists. Only a few more minutes, now. 

5 Years later

I woke upbreathless, gasping for air. My forehead damp from sweat, my breathing uneven as I recalled the fading away events that had occured just moments ago before I was snapped back to reality, and i wasnt sure if i was happy about that, or was I? I'e heard the hours between 12pm and 6pm have a funny habit of making people like theyre either on top of the world, or under it. But just so you know, monsters are real,and ghosts are real too. They live inside us, and sometimes they win. In my case, they haven't. I'm a ghost. Or maybe a monster too. Both, actually. He turned me into this. He made my life as it is now. Dead, lifeless, and nothingness. That's how we all turned out to be.Do i regret what happened 5 years ago? Before I could mentally answer myself, I fought back tears, and just like the memories, i couldnt hold them back. How many times do you have to go through this? What's wrong with you? He's a physcopath. He raped your goddamned mother for crying out loud.

The voices were coming back. Louder, and more powerful. Causing another headache, as though sharp needleswere  peircing htrough my brain. My head was swarming with unwanted images of him. 

You naive, naive, girl. Back to square one again are we? Go ahead, cut deeper. Its not like youre going to die anyways.

Violet....

Oh Violet..

Violet...

Echoing again and again, rumbling in my clattered mind. "GET OUT OF MY HEAD". I screamed at the top of my lungs. Falling to the ground, I covered my ears and contuinued to send ou blood curdling screams that even got me spooked. "I can't take this anymore." My lingering breaths hovered just above the hardwood floor.  I found my voice and called out. "You're all I want Tate, you're all I have."