all the things i cant say out loud.

it sucks

it honestly sucks being more aware than others. most people don't understand the things that i do. maybe it's because i experienced things at a young age? they don't understand my music and the deeper meaning behind it. simple minded people. it gets lonely being like this though. you can't tell people how you feel or what you know because they'll think that you're weird. you'll scare them off. do you just have conversations with yourself, the only person who you can rely on. you don't trust yourself, no, of course not. but you're the only one who understands what others don't. constant battle with what you know and what you want. you usually go with what you know brain>heart. it's safer that way. keep yourself safe, don't take risks. stay alone. don't trust anybody. everyone leaves. that's my motto and so far it's been right. you got yourself paige, only yourself. writing is my escape. music is my escape. seems like i'm always trying to escape but from what? you can only hide for so long. when i zone out it feels like this world isn't real, like none of this is real. it may sound stupid but that just means you are like the others. i am not like you. i am different.