This isnt gonna be a very long one since i am on my phone and it is just a random thought i had. I think that i am actually really depressed all the time and the only reason i act fine most of the time is because of my gf. Like after she goes to sleep or whenever i dont talk to her i get really depressed. It usually happens late at night and it is just so weird. Like rn i just want to sleep and not wake up. It isnt a kill myself depression either it is just a hopeless no point in getting up or doing anything. Almost like i dont have a purpose to do anything. Normally the reason i move around and do things is to make her happy and that is about all that matters to me anymore. Idk i need to learn how to love myself again and strive for things.
