Lockdown

1-Margo

Big brown dreamy eyes. Staring right at me. Not at me, into me. Like he could see right through me. I have never felt like this with anyone. I knew this was love 1 year ago when we first met and I knew it now. I was ready to say it for a long time and right now in the back seat of his 68 comaro. I was ready.

"Hey Jeremy? "

"Yeah"

"I love you"

He looked at me weird but then he smiled with his beautiful smile and said "I dont"

"What"

"I dont love you"

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My alarm clock may have saved me from the rest of that dream but unfortunately I still may become a reality.

I get dressed and get ready for school. I have to wake up 2 hours before school in order to try to do something with my thick blonde curly hair.

I go downstairs just to find my older brother Nathan eating the cupcakes his girlfriend made him. They were vanilla with red frosting a what looked like a heart. Usually this would be typical stuff in a long term serious relationship but considering they have been dating for less than a week and my brother is, to be said nicely, a player and a bit of an asshole it was very surprising. Where as I thought 'how nice of her' he thought 'this bitch crazy' and they broke up yesterday.

"I must say though these cupcakes are amazing. A little dry though."

"Your such a dick. You do realize that you dumped her because she made you cupcakes?"

"Only crazy people make guys they just started dating cupcakes"

I grabbed my stuff and walked to my friends house down the road. She has been my ride since last year when I used to ride with my brother but always fearing for your life got old so the minute she got her license she was my chauffeur. But since she always is in some fight with her mom she comes over to my house all the time so we call it even.

"Hey Margo"

"Hey Nancy"

"So tell me... is it true that Nathan dumped Lisa because she made him brownies?"

"Cupcakes and yes. Sometimes I wanna kick his ass but I think there are girls that have a better reason to."

"Like lisa?"

"Yeah exactly."

"You look nervous, you ok?"

"Yeah I just have a big day today. Me and Jeremy have a date today and I think im gonna say it."

"Wait u still haven't said it!?!? I thought you said you were going to tell him weeks ago?"

"Yeah but what if he doesnt say it back or if he says that he doesn't love me then what? No its ok he loves me and I am ready."

"Thats good just dont overthink it you know"

And for the first time I felt I was ready but there were still doubt, not doubt that I loved him, but doubt that we would make it almost no one ends up with their high school sweet heart. Especially when his ex is always throwing herself at him. Her name was Donna and she is a complete bitch (not just because she was his ex). But still all could think was I am ready is he.

We pull up to school and a bunch of our friends are sitting outside the bandroom. We are all in marching band. I play the flute, Nancy plays the trumpet, and Jeremy plays baritone. In a typical high school band kids are nerds but when there are 300 kids in band it makes us popular nerds.

Through a large crowd of people I saw him laughing. He was so cute with his smile. Suddenly he saw me and started to break away from the crowd and walk towards me. He hugged me and gave me a kiss until Nancy made a gagging sound. He laughed again. Ugh that beautiful smile. We walk to our special spot under the tree on the hill next to the school. We usually get to school 20 minutes early so we have time to talk and do other things.

"So tell me how was your weekend"

He asks me with such curiosity. He is my only boyfriend I ever had to actually care about what I have to say. I tell him about my weekend and about the drama with my brother and Lisa. At the end of it he just looks at me with his big brown eyes and says...

"Wow what a weekend all I did was walk to wawa and go to church. But there is something I've been wanting to do all weekend. "

He started to kiss my neck. Dont get me wrong I am still a virgin but if I was going to lose it to anyone I would want it to be him.

I look up as Jeremy pecks gracefully at my neck. Then I look down towards the school parking lot and felt weird. Something was wrong or maybe just different. But what was it? I see the same people, same cars, same tree in the middle of the courtyard to represent unity or some crap they tell us at the assembly. But still something was wrong. I keept looking around when I found it. There was a boy, no a man in a black hoodie. The guy looked way to old to be a student so maybe he was a parent. I've seen some pretty weird parents come to this school so a guy in a hoodie wouldnt be the worse thing to happen this year. But still I look at him and I get a off feeling something wasnt right. Who was he and what was he doing here?

"Are you ok, I can stop if you want."

"No its ok. Im fine, really."

But I wasnt fine. I had an off feeling about this guy but there was nothing I could do. All I could do was continue kissing my incredibly hot boyfriend.