The Waiting Room

All My Fault

Chapter 1
"Look, I'm sorry to inform you but we weren't able to revive them" grief struck me, the pain of not being able to see me mother, sister and father filled my thoughts. I tried pinching myself hoping that this was just some sick dream, but it was a reality, a sickening reality. "What do you mean by we couldn't revive them, I need to speak to them"
"I don't know how to say this, but you family didn't make it, your mother and father died in the accident and your sister died in the hospital"
My mind was filled with regret, if I didn't make them pick me up early from that party they may not have been in the car accident. If only I stayed and wasn't being defensive and rude, I wouldn't have yelled at my friend. This was all my fault.

"Do you have anywhere to live" asked the doctor.
"Um, I'm not sure, my parents never made a will" a singular tear ran down my face. I felt sick holding back my tears and holding back what I really thought. I sat down in the waiting room, the cold chair sent shivers down my body. All I wanted to do was go in the operation room and say my final goodbyes. "May I please go in the operation room and say goodbye".
"You may, but we will need to sort out this issue later"
"What issue?"
"Where you are going to live of course, they have no will, you have to go somewhere" I nodded. Grief still filled me, I felt like there was an empty void, and it was impossible for me to fill.

The Doctor opened the door to the operation room, "take your time, I can't imagine how hard this is for you". I slowly walked into the room preparing myself for what I may see. The scent of blood infested my nose in the ice cold room, "this is all of my fault" I muttered "you deserved better, you deserved a better son". I ran over, beside my mothers bed. I knelt down and held her hand. Tears ran down my face knowing that the only family I had left was gone, everyone who I love and everyone who I cared about.

It hit me, now I was all alone and it was all my fault. I shook my mothers arm, but her skin was still ice cold. As I shook her I had the small hope that she would awaken and give me one last hug. I felt sick, she was really gone. I leaned over her and kissed her forehead, then I moved her dark brown hair behind her ear. "I will always love you, and I am so sorry for what happened". I stood up and watched as the doctor walked in the room and covered her face with the sheet.

The doctor saw the grief on my face, he said "maybe you should just say goodbye to the others at their funeral, we need to take them now". I wanted to stay, but maybe it was best that I left. I walked out of the room in silence.

I looked around for a window or at least something that would take my mind off what had just happened. The waiting room just had white walls, no windows and chairs. As I sat down all I felt was guilt, it was my fault they were dead. The doctor came out of the operation room, he gave me a smile. Maybe he was trying to make me feel better but that didn't work. Nothing will work. "What's you name boy". I didn't feel like talking, but yet again how would he know how I feel.

"You are going to have to talk sometime", the doctor turned around and started walking away. "Tyler"
"Excuse me, what did you say"
"My name is Tyler Lancasa"

The doctor started walking to me, "so Tyler, do you have any family, because you parents don't have a will you will need to go to one of your family members". I just looked at him and thought about his question, all of my family is dead, all I have left is my uncle and aunty. "All I have left is my uncle and aunty, everyone else I have loved has died"
"Well you don't have a choice, but you will have to stay with them", a little bit of hope filled my heart, I can stay with someone that I love.

The doctor gave me a warm smile, "Tyler, not all hope is lost, you have some family. I'll go to reception and give them a call. Stay here". The doctor gave me a warm smile, "Tyler, not all hope is lost, you have some family. I'll go to reception and give them a call. Stay here". The doctor left the waiting room. While the doctor was gone there was nothing for me to do but wait, as I waited I watched the other families, some were going through the same, saying goodbye to a loved one. Some were having the best day of their lives, the joy of having a child but I was just here alone all by myself. I waited for the doctor but he hasn't come back yet.

I wondered how could all of this happen over me getting picked up from a party. Was it my fault. I started to think back to what happened.

"Have fun at the party, don't stay up to late" my mum said excitedly. She gave me a warm smile and kissed me on the forehead. "Love you Tyler"
"Love you to mum" I got out of the car and walked up to the front door. I watched as my mother drove off down St Clems Street. I rang the doorbell and my friend Sebastian opened the door. "Hey Seb happy birthday"
"Thanks, come in". As I walked in I carried my present and my heavy backpack that had my sleeping bag and pillow. Sebastian's house was massive, it looked like a mansion on the outside and even bigger on the in. "Thanks, come in". As I walked in I carried my present and my heavy backpack that had my sleeping bag and pillow. Sebastian's house was massive, it looked like a mansion on the outside and even bigger on the in. "You are the first one here Tyler, just leave your stuff on the couch" I placed my bag on the couch and followed Seb into the lounge room. He grabbed out his Xbox controllers and handed one to me. "While we wait for the others we may as well have a go at call of duty"
"You are probably going to win Seb, I suck at playing call of duty, I'm way better at mortal kombat"
"I know, that's why I don't want to vs you in that, you will win by a long shot"
"Ok, let's get this over with". We played call of duty for 30 minutes, I was starting to think no one would show up and I would be the only one over. "DING DONG" the doorbell rang. I followed Seb to the front door. Jayden and Tom were at the door, Jayden's mum must have gave Tom a lift. "Happy Birthday Seb" Jayden and Tom exclaimed. Over time the rest of the people came over Daniel, Adam, Jackson and Ben.

We were about to turn on a movie to watch, "What about Norbit" I asked. "No the lady in that movie is as fat as Sophie" the hair stood up on my arms, anger filled me, all I wanted to punch Tom for saying that. "Do you mean my cousin Sophie"
"Yeah, I'm talking about your fat cousin"
"That's a lot coming from someone as fat and ugly as you" I shouted
" Oh really at leased I'm not a dumb blond, you can't even get a B in a test" Tom shouted back. I stood up and I walked up to him, I spat at him and then I punched him in the face. "You punch like a girl Tyler"
"Shut up retard" Sebastian's mum stormed in the room. She looked angry, she looked at Tom and I. "Both of you are going to apologise and call your parents, you are both going home" I looked at Tom waiting for an apology. He said nothing, so I stormed out of the room and went to the front door. I grabbed my phone and called my parents. "Hi mum, I got in a bit of a fight, can you pick me up and take me home"
"Sure honey, I'll bring your father so you can explain it to him"
"Ok, thank you"

Hours passed and my mother didn't turn up. I looked at my watch and looked inside. All of the boys were having fun and I was just sitting on the front porch. Suddenly a car zoomed past stopping right in front of me. I man with dark skin got out of the car and walked up to me. "You need to come with me, it's your family, get in the car". I didn't ask any questions and just went in the car.

That's all that happened that lead me to now, it was all of my fault, I am the reason that they are dead. The doctor finally came back in the waiting room. I felt sick, what if he wasn't able to contact my auntie and uncle, what if they didn't want me. The doctor gave me a small smile, it gave me a sense of hope, maybe my auntie can pick me up and I won't have to be stuck in this waiting room forever. "I have good news Tyler, your auntie can pick you up today, but she won't get here for another 2 hours"
"So are you saying that I am going to have to wait 2 hours"
"Unfortunately you will have to". The doctor walked away to attend other patients so I was now here all alone with no one to talk to.

I watched as the small clocks hand moved, this was going to be the longest 2 hours of my life. Each tick reminded me that I would never be able to see my family again, this was every second that I was away from them. In a way I didn't want to go to my aunties house because her family would just be a sick reminder that I don't have one. I tried to pinch myself, I tried punching myself, I tried everything but nothing would happen. I had finally realised that this was real and I couldn't do anything about it, I couldn't do anything to make things better.