I Don't Want To Hurt You- Suga

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I got home and I didn't want to be there either. Sometimes, I wished for schools to have their own rooms for us to sleep in. I didn't want to be home at all and I kind of never wanted to be. I didn't even want to live but I had to be here. Even though I got treated like trash I still loved my family.

"Where are you?!" The voice shouted from the living room.

I sighed softly and answered "here" as I walked out of my room.

She laughed angrily and said "Like always, your always in your room and never do anything!"

I just looked at her and stayed standing still. I flinched as she yelled "WELL ARE YOU GOING TO STAND THERE ALL DAY OR WHAT? DO SOMETHING? ARE YOU GOING TO SAY YOUR TIRED OF WORKING ALL DAY IN SCHOOL OR WHAT?"

I started to clean the dining table which was only a mess on her side but I wasn't going to tell her. I didn't want to get beat up by her or get my mother angry. She always yelled for everything because she was treated bad at her job. Everyone usually took out the anger on me.

My dad came home and my mother asked "Oh, your home. Hurry! So, the food won't get cold and we can eat together."

I rolled my eyes as I headed to my room. "Acts like she didn't just yell at me and wanted to beat me up." I whispered to myself as I looked at my homework. I liked when my dad got home because he didn't let her yell or beat me.

I didn't really like both of my parents and they didn't like me at all. My mother abused me physically, emotionally and my dad abused me emotionally. He would cheat on my mother with some other women and had a kid a few months older than me. The only pure souls in the family was me and my little sister. I stayed in this world for her because I wanted her to have me atleast. I'm much older than her but I spent my whole life suffering by myself and it was awful.

We ate like nothing happened and I wasn't going to tell my dad what had happened. He would leave with the other women and hate my mother more. Then she would beat me and hate me more.

I can't call the cops because me and my sister would get separated. What if she lived more hell than me in the new family? I knew I would be gradating soon but I needed a well paying job to maintain both of us. I knew well that would be impossible so, we needed these crazy parents.

I thought my little sister to just nod and try not to speak. So, she wouldn't get in trouble like I would but I got in trouble for even being in my room doing homework.

I was mostly in my room because it was the safest place.

*BEEP BEEP BEEP*

I opened my eyes wide when I heard my alarm go off.

*5 A.M.*

"COME ON! GET UP I DON'T HAVE YOUR TIME!" My mother shouted as she was already ready for work.

I got my sister dressed and I dressed myself. We rushed to the car and we dropped her off at the daycare.

*6 A.M.*

"You better pray that I'm not late to my job for taking you to this dumb school. All because you got bullied at the other school!"

I turned my head to look out the window and tried to act like I wasn't there.

*slap*

I grabbed my cheek as I looked at her angry. I looked towards the windshield and straighten my face.

"Don't be laughing while I'm talking to you. You better be looking straight when I speak to you!" She yelled as she got closer to my school.

I got off the car and made my way to the front doors. "You better not get hurt out here!"

I kept walking as I heard her acting like she cared.

"You heard me!" She shouted as she asked.

"Yes." I said through my teeth.

I heard the car drive away and I looked up at the camera by the doors. "Great, can't cry here infront of it." I said as my hands tighten around the bench seat.

I looked at the time on my phone and it was 6:18 A.M.. "Yup! She's late and I'm going to get in trouble later."

I let out a loud frustration and saw the smoke come out my mouth. I started to think about the coldness around me. I saw a truck park infront of the school and luckily it was the cleaning ladies. They unlocked the door for me to go into the warm school. I went to go wait for class to start.