Wow... I just read through this book (part of it it's really long) used it as my diary not caring who saw it... it was therapeutic to write out my feelings but man reading it now. I was so rude and depressed, my goodness why did I not get help when I knew how bad I was omg.
I'm sorry to anyone I hurt with this book by either being unnecessarily rude or saying I wanted to kill my self all the time....
I did get help, and I am doing so much better, to those who commented or messaged me to check on me thank you, it still means so much to me that people who didn't even know me cared/care so much about me.
I don't know who will see this it's been years since I touched this book, and honestly I was so stupid the only thing I didn't do was put my address on one of the chapters but seeing as I haven't read the whole book yet I wouldn't be surprised, wow I'm yelling at my past self omg was she dumb and sad.
To the OGs of my account, I'm good now, I still remember some of you guys and even still look for you to make sure you're doing okay (and even if I don't see you I hope you all are) .
Thank you for being there for the loner suicidal girl who really needed a friend, but was too depressed to see she had some and was so stubborn she pushed them all away...
Sorry for making your days sad, back then. I'm not that person anymore, honestly that was the darkest part of my life and I posted it online....
I did take down the chapters but I will be posting some back up, (Q&A's and some of the stuff I wrote, even the sad stuff but some needs to not be on the internet and I'm sorry it ever was XD at least I've learned from it and maybe you did too?
So long story short, I was a mess back then but I'm good now.
Thank you to those who were there for me, it means so much even still that you all were there for me, even when you had your own demons.
I'm sorry to anyone I hurt while I was hurting.
