"A-ashton wasnt just my best friend, or bandmate, h-he was my brother" I stuttered getting teary again. "A-ashton was strong, he was b-beautiful, he was everything. A-and he changed my life, i-i will never be the same, ash i know you'll be watching over me bro, i lo-love you" i speak the tears rolling down my face. I walk off towards michael, were both crying, he tightly wraps his arms around me, i press my face into his chest and cry "b-baby its okay, h-he's in a better place now" michael says crying... "L-lukey are you okay?" I open my eyes "mikey" i cry and wrap my arms around him still sobbing. "Did you have a bad dream? Mike says worriedly i nod "i-i was dreaming about ashton" i say still crying "oh baby that was a year ago, ashton wouldnt want you to be sad" he says i just nod and try to stop crying. (A/n Luke is not all innocent and shit, hes just upset now, you'll hate him soon haha) i stop crying finally. "Can we cuddle?" I ask my boyfriend michael, he still looks scared of me, but he agrees, and honestly im scared of me sometimes too. See since ashton killed him self last year, december 20th 2013, i started drinking to much, did some drugs, hurt michael. I hit michael when im really drunk sometimes, i always regret it and apologize after though, but i know he's afraid of me. HII what do ya think? I try haha :)
