The Blizzard In Our Minds

Prologue

Her Mother always said, when the snow falls it might seem like the world stops and it all eventually appears peaceful and quiet. That it might look beautiful and like you can't get enough of it at first but when you start to have excessive amounts of it,
it will turn into something dangerous, even more deadly than death himself.

Her mother told her, >>Let nothing scare you to the point where the snow falls for too long and turns into a blizzard. The Blizzard is hard to get through, so be brave for the ones you love. But if you get into a blizzard, don't let the amount of snow stop you from protecting your loved ones.<<
The daughter learned fast that what her mother said was the painful reality.

When the snow had fallen for a while and turned to a Blizzard like her mother said it would, the world started to drown, not in white but blood red.
Then, the peace and quiet that the first snowflakes had brought with them were gone. The one thing her mother didn't tell her was, that the thoughts in your head will soon start to rebel against your sane mind.
That then, you know, you'll drown too in the stream of blood and pain.
That, when you don't feel the cold anymore and you don't really feel the pain of your hands and feet because they are numb by now, you know it's time to head back.
That sometimes, the storm gets too strong and you can't fight it this time and the next thing you know is you're attempting to go back into your safe zone.
Where the blizzard doesn't exist and it all doesn't seem to be as messy as it actually is.
When you are in this business you feel this a lot.
This business is like a blizzard.
It starts light, goes harder, more and more until it builds a destroying, out whipening Snowstorm which only brings the pain of loss.
Sure that brings lots of money but what is it against all the negative things?
Still it's the only thing most of us know best. The one thing that saved us. Pain. Destruction. Killing, drug selling. Some hurtful, some satisfying experiences.
It's ironic that the one thing we all do for a living is too, the one thing that brings us the most pain.

The Blizzard won't end 'till the snow does and that will only happen when spring comes.

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